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shōyō hinata ([personal profile] asas) wrote in [community profile] deernet 2022-07-18 02:47 am (UTC)

[ when shōyō returns to his omni after the run (hours, he’s been running for hours), to message viktor, to ask for help— lazarus digs the knife deeper, whether he has meant to or not.

that’s all he wants to know.

that’s all he has to say.

not even an apology? even if it was private. shōyō couldn’t be damned to consider all he’s written has been public. he isn’t thinking either. he can’t, it’s foggy, and muddled, and his heart pounds in his ears when he keeps reading these mechanical words sewn so meticulously. was this a mask, or the face behind the one he’s always seen?

an alien, trespassing shimmer of positivity infects his sadness, taints and twists it. it shouldn’t be here, with how he sobs for every crack his heart makes. and yet, it still gets him to type, even if it would otherwise hold an air of biting sarcasm: ]


i’m fine
you found out
now you can sit back and relax

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