Most of the time, definitely not me, but… [ she hesitates here, uncertain how much she wants to reveal to this virtual stranger but finally she just dives in. it’s story time, Jinx! ] I was betrayed once by this boy. I’d been alone and confused and—and scared out of my fucking mind. I was taught to never trust anyone but I’d needed someone and he’d been there.
He’d listened; helped me even though he didn’t really know me and the things I had been dealing with were insane. And just as I was… I don’t know, starting to really trust him he… he broke that trust, told me the truth: he’d lied to me, was a part of the reason I was alone and scared. [ it still stings to think about. her trust had been such a fragile thing back then and it felt as if he’d stomped on it. It and her father’s life. ]
There came a point where I had the choice to let him suffer and die but I decided to trust him again. I needed him and he needed me and… things hadn’t been what they seemed when he did those things to me. He’d been lied to. Manipulated.
I’m all for ditching traitors but I guess… not all of them all the time. Just 99%. Maybe 99.5 to be on the safe side.
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He’d listened; helped me even though he didn’t really know me and the things I had been dealing with were insane. And just as I was… I don’t know, starting to really trust him he… he broke that trust, told me the truth: he’d lied to me, was a part of the reason I was alone and scared. [ it still stings to think about. her trust had been such a fragile thing back then and it felt as if he’d stomped on it. It and her father’s life. ]
There came a point where I had the choice to let him suffer and die but I decided to trust him again. I needed him and he needed me and… things hadn’t been what they seemed when he did those things to me. He’d been lied to. Manipulated.
I’m all for ditching traitors but I guess… not all of them all the time. Just 99%. Maybe 99.5 to be on the safe side.