That's always been my preference, too. To reason with them, to take them in... but sometimes they give me no choice. Sometimes they kill themselves rather than be captured, or sometimes... if I let them live, they'd hurt enough people that I can't...
... I can't trade the lives of thousands or millions of people just because I... would prefer to reason with someone.
But you're right. It does feel like a failure. But... one of those people I couldn't save told me something... that we have to keep moving forward. For those we have lost. For those we can yet save. I try to remember that.
I mourn the loss of those that I've killed. I'm not an innocent man, despite being hailed as a hero. And I've met people of the land I once thought of as being entirely my enemy. ... And to them, I was nothing short of a murderer. Someone who took their friends and loved ones from them. In their eyes, I'd killed without a second thought. And I can see why.
To them I'm a brutal murderer, capable of wielding powers they have no way of controlling. Bouncing back from some of the worst injuries... someone from a land of 'no' technology and a completely different way of life...
... But for every soldier I cut down, it... hurt. I had to defend myself. I had to defend the people I cared about. A lot of it was... well. War. It doesn't excuse what I've done, though. When I finally do end up in Thal's halls, I...
... I expect that my sins will be weighed along with my acts of heroism. And while the latter are many, so are the former. Taking a life for something other than hunting for survival is... still taking the life of a thinking, feeling soul.
So I agree with you. It is a failure. We all fail sometimes, but... we aim to do better. To save others. To save one person... it can save the whole world.
Endwalker spoilers, cw: brief suicide mention
... I can't trade the lives of thousands or millions of people just because I... would prefer to reason with someone.
But you're right. It does feel like a failure. But... one of those people I couldn't save told me something... that we have to keep moving forward. For those we have lost. For those we can yet save. I try to remember that.
I mourn the loss of those that I've killed. I'm not an innocent man, despite being hailed as a hero. And I've met people of the land I once thought of as being entirely my enemy. ... And to them, I was nothing short of a murderer. Someone who took their friends and loved ones from them. In their eyes, I'd killed without a second thought. And I can see why.
To them I'm a brutal murderer, capable of wielding powers they have no way of controlling. Bouncing back from some of the worst injuries... someone from a land of 'no' technology and a completely different way of life...
... But for every soldier I cut down, it... hurt. I had to defend myself. I had to defend the people I cared about. A lot of it was... well. War. It doesn't excuse what I've done, though. When I finally do end up in Thal's halls, I...
... I expect that my sins will be weighed along with my acts of heroism. And while the latter are many, so are the former. Taking a life for something other than hunting for survival is... still taking the life of a thinking, feeling soul.
So I agree with you. It is a failure. We all fail sometimes, but... we aim to do better. To save others. To save one person... it can save the whole world.