Of course I know that you'd help her. You help everyone. It makes it utterly meaningless on a personal level. She spent a lot of her time here feeling alienated from all of you. I've no doubt you made an effort - probably your friends too but it doesn't change the way that you made her feel. She was my friend, and I was angry about it at the time.
Being willing to save someone - even from themselves - doesn't mean anything if you will continue to treat them like a live bomb forever afterward. That's the only way I've ever been treated. I gave everything to prove that assumption wrong, and in the end all it came to was realizing they were right all along.
I just wish I could have validated those fears for them and killed them all myself. As a thank you.
[They huff a bemused laugh and shake their head. Their tone is almost... bittersweet. There's a deep cynicism beneath these feelings, as there always is, but it's the cynicism of someone who used to be an optimist. Who used to believe in something, like Deku does. They hate him a little for it, for the first time ever. There was no resentment on their end, not consciously, but maybe they hate that other people got to keep their ideals instead of having them forcibly and objectively disproven one at a time.]
Resentments fester regardless of what you do. It's the cost of doing anything important in the world. If you had saved those pirates, they would have turned around and stabbed you in the back - or better yet, attempted to put you in shackles and sell you to the highest bidder. And the people you stopped? When I killed those pirates, I wasn't making a mistake, I was making a moral choice of my own free will that I would make a thousand times over. If you had stopped me like Paul stopped you, I would have resented you just like you resented him in that moment. But that wouldn't have stopped you, because you don't care.
Peace is never something you can create permanently. Especially not by your methods or the methods used by my partner. I should clarify they didn't start a dictatorship or anything, but they refused to take no for an answer when it came to saving people - even when it got them hurt time and time again, they would come back even if they had to change the world to do it. The world was convinced they were better off dead, but their determination to show compassion was stronger than the world, and so they lived and succeeded, freeing our people and saving everyone, even the truly evil ones like me and my brother.
Even in that world, the peace would only be temporary, because that future was meaningless - and they hadn't dealt with the full extent of the real monsters - humans, but they managed to save everyone for a time. [If they didn't hate themselves quite so much, they might have even said "we." Because it's true. Nobody would ever know it but Chara gave everything in them to help, to save everyone and to understand and to help Frisk understand the world around them while guiding them to their goal of changing it.
They bared their heart to Asriel and ripped him from the edge of evil and he responded by replacing them atop their grave. They were never meant to be the good one.]
There is no succeeding, not for a goal like yours. Never permanently. And especially if the method you choose is to simply focus on whatever's right in front of you, rather than anything lasting.
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Being willing to save someone - even from themselves - doesn't mean anything if you will continue to treat them like a live bomb forever afterward. That's the only way I've ever been treated. I gave everything to prove that assumption wrong, and in the end all it came to was realizing they were right all along.
I just wish I could have validated those fears for them and killed them all myself. As a thank you.
[They huff a bemused laugh and shake their head. Their tone is almost... bittersweet. There's a deep cynicism beneath these feelings, as there always is, but it's the cynicism of someone who used to be an optimist. Who used to believe in something, like Deku does. They hate him a little for it, for the first time ever. There was no resentment on their end, not consciously, but maybe they hate that other people got to keep their ideals instead of having them forcibly and objectively disproven one at a time.]
Resentments fester regardless of what you do. It's the cost of doing anything important in the world. If you had saved those pirates, they would have turned around and stabbed you in the back - or better yet, attempted to put you in shackles and sell you to the highest bidder. And the people you stopped? When I killed those pirates, I wasn't making a mistake, I was making a moral choice of my own free will that I would make a thousand times over. If you had stopped me like Paul stopped you, I would have resented you just like you resented him in that moment. But that wouldn't have stopped you, because you don't care.
Peace is never something you can create permanently. Especially not by your methods or the methods used by my partner. I should clarify they didn't start a dictatorship or anything, but they refused to take no for an answer when it came to saving people - even when it got them hurt time and time again, they would come back even if they had to change the world to do it. The world was convinced they were better off dead, but their determination to show compassion was stronger than the world, and so they lived and succeeded, freeing our people and saving everyone, even the truly evil ones like me and my brother.
Even in that world, the peace would only be temporary, because that future was meaningless - and they hadn't dealt with the full extent of the real monsters - humans, but they managed to save everyone for a time. [If they didn't hate themselves quite so much, they might have even said "we." Because it's true. Nobody would ever know it but Chara gave everything in them to help, to save everyone and to understand and to help Frisk understand the world around them while guiding them to their goal of changing it.
They bared their heart to Asriel and ripped him from the edge of evil and he responded by replacing them atop their grave. They were never meant to be the good one.]
There is no succeeding, not for a goal like yours. Never permanently. And especially if the method you choose is to simply focus on whatever's right in front of you, rather than anything lasting.