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[fusrodaaaah]

sasuke and sakura

they are back in the sea


I’m sorry

[And that’s it. Sorry Trench, if you were expecting more information, he doesn’t have it to give. Partly because what do you even say to something like this? And partly because this is Melius we’re talking about and the guy barely does social interaction - let alone dealing with heavy news.]

[… time to wallow in a pile of succulents and misery!]

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[tealeafs]

[ One of Chizuru's nails scratches at her skin - but not hard enough to actually hurt. It's more a light, idle gesture, like her nerves translate to little ways of fretting like that. ]

I just look.. mostly still like me. [ She likes to think so, anyway.

But sometimes when she gets really anxious, it's easy to worry that maybe she doesn't look a thing like herself in that form. ]

My hair and eyes change colour. And I grow horns, like-- like you.

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Oh.

[He blinks again. And again. And scratches at his own scales. They both have itching tics, apparently.] Um. That's - that's not.

That's not bad. At all.

[Really, he was expecting so much worse. Like being on fire, or made of lightning. That kind of thing.]

[tealeafs]

Do you think you could handle that..?

[ He is saying it's not bad at all, but.. you know, it can't hurt to ask this again just to make sure, right? The last thing she wants is for him to be scared after all.

She isn't too sure if she could handle a friend looking at her like that. Not after everything. ]

I'm.. um, I'm not even sure I can change into that form, it's still hard for me.. But I could try.

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... yes.

[He doesn't sound as nervous as usual when he says that. He sounds sure of himself?]

Because - because that isn't like Dremora. Or Daedra. That. That still... sounds like Chizuru.

[Impeccable logic here!]

[tealeafs]

[ Hey, that is logic that clearly can't be denied.

It's why Chizuru doesn't respond to it with words. Instead she just nods, and then closes her eyes - looking very much like she's focusing. She's found that it's a little easier with the kind of blood she's got in this place compared to back home, but it still takes quite some effort on her part to consciously shift appearances. If not just because she isn't used to doing so.

But after inhaling and exhaling a few times, her appearance slowly starts to shift. Her hair shifts from its usual dark shade of brown to a pure white, and small stubby horns grow out of her forehead.

When she slowly opens her eyes again, they're a bright golden colour, seeming to glow entirely by themselves.

Chizuru doesn't say anything, even when her eyes are open again and she stares at Melius - almost like she's too worried or too embarrassed to be the one to speak up first here in this situation. ]

[fusrodaaaah]

[Okay, no matter what. He's going to watch her do this. He's going to keep an open mind, and he's not going to freak out! Unless it's... an explosion or something. Then he might freak out a bit.]

[But it isn't.]

[It's very slow and calm. It's like watching someone repaint her or something. And there's nothing scary about it at all. Sure, the glowing eyes are a bit off-putting. But animals have glowing eyes! And they're just animals.]

Oh. You um. That isn't scary.

[And hey! He said it without really stuttering. That says a lot!]

[tealeafs]

[ Even when he speaks up first - thank you, Melius, you're being such a good brave guy!! - Chizuru doesn't speak up for another moment. Instead her hand reaches up, almost hesitantly, to feel at her horn.

.. yes, that.. sure is there. It feels strange to her, considering how little time she has spent in this form, and how alien the entire demon thing still feels to her. But she does want to acknowledge this is who she is, whether she likes it or not. (Or rather -- no matter how she feels about it.) ]

.. It isn't..?

[ Granted, one should figure it really isn't if Melius can say it like that, but Chizuru is just insecure enough about this that she can't help but ask all the same. ]

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N-no! No... no it's not. It um. It looks like... you dyed your hair.

[He fidgets a bit more. Not sure if this is going to be helpful to her or not. He hopes it will be.]

And - and horns. I have horns. Those - those are fine.

[Is this helping? Is he helping.]

S-sometimes, Khajiit have eyes that glow. And - and I am not afraid of Khajiit. So. You aren't scary.

[tealeafs]

.. thank you.

[ Her voice is soft as she says it. Her gaze moves to stare at her own hands in her lap, but then she slowly sucks in a breath as she dares to move it back up to him. ]

I.. guess it might be easier for you. Since not everyone where you come from looks like a human. [ Unlike Chizuru's world - where everyone would absolutely be startled if they saw something looking as different as Chizuru does. ] But it's.. It's still kind of you to say I'm not scary.

[ It still means something to her, even if it doesn't necessarily convince her that she's not scary at all to anyone. But.. at least her friends trust her. At least her friends aren't scared.

That's important too, right? ]

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M-maybe. Maybe... but I'm still... I'm still scared of a lot. Of things.

[He's scared of so many things, Chizuru. So very many things. But it seems like she isn't one of them. She would never do anything to attack him. Or hurt him.]

[So why be afraid of her?]

You're... you're my friend. So. So I can't. Be afraid. Of you.