I spent the last two or three years of my life before coming to the dream mourning. I hated myself, hated the people involved in someone's death, hated the world for letting it happen. I got real damned good at hating a whole lot of shit while smiling away like it's all fine. You would not believe how much anger you can put into skipping.
Which is actually not a joke, believe it or not.
Your pain's not like mine. It's more just raw tragedy and loss, instead of rage and fury, but the pain's similar. It will get better, because "Time heals all wounds" isn't total bullshit. But you're probably going to be pretty raw for a while, especially since we aren't there. Kind of hard to get closure here, especially since the nightmare's version of closure never works.
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I spent the last two or three years of my life before coming to the dream mourning.
I hated myself, hated the people involved in someone's death, hated the world for letting it happen.
I got real damned good at hating a whole lot of shit while smiling away like it's all fine.
You would not believe how much anger you can put into skipping.
Which is actually not a joke, believe it or not.
Your pain's not like mine.
It's more just raw tragedy and loss, instead of rage and fury, but the pain's similar.
It will get better, because "Time heals all wounds" isn't total bullshit.
But you're probably going to be pretty raw for a while, especially since we aren't there.
Kind of hard to get closure here, especially since the nightmare's version of closure never works.