When I was in Deerington, at one point I met this jaded future version of myself. She was dying, and she'd lost all hope in anything. Even after the whole thing with the cave guys, I refused to be like that. I thought, "I'll always have hope, I won't be like HER."
But I wonder if I made that choice the moment I decided to stay here. I didn't have to feel scared all the time. I could have chosen to go back. I wanted to come back here, to be with you all, to have a life here.
So why does a part of me feel like I'm being punished for making that choice?
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When I was in Deerington, at one point I met this jaded future version of myself. She was dying, and she'd lost all hope in anything. Even after the whole thing with the cave guys, I refused to be like that. I thought, "I'll always have hope, I won't be like HER."
But I wonder if I made that choice the moment I decided to stay here. I didn't have to feel scared all the time. I could have chosen to go back. I wanted to come back here, to be with you all, to have a life here.
So why does a part of me feel like I'm being punished for making that choice?