That's what I'm hoping for. It's at least a better fate than thinking that I wound up here randomly just because I was dragged here by Julia and then just got Stockholm Syndrome and stayed. I do want to push forward.

[Even saying it out loud, it sounded ridiculous and unlike her. That was a mindset that was too easy to fall into when things were bad: there were still lots of good things about being here].

I don't know if I could do that if I tried. Maybe a corrupted form of me could, but not ME me.