[Accidental Transmission]

[imaglyphwitch]

((Warnings: Stream of conscious, fairly depressed feelings thought aloud, mention of losing one's sentience))

[It was at the tower, the very top, one of the few times she didn't see Rapunzel there, and that was interesting because someone else was there. Luz had gone up to get away, aware of the feeling in her heart but not wanting to have that so openly displayed. As it happened, it was the first of February, she should have expected to see her, but her appearing now made so much sense to her].

You knew. Of course you did.

[Luz looked out into the snow-covered places of Trench, marveling it a moment].

Most days this would be a great view. It reminds me of the possibilities, of the places I haven't explored yet. Even if there are things here that terrify me, there's also a lot that's really interesting!

But. I just feel heavy in my heart right now. I...I miss her. I love my omen, I do, Tempest is a part of me I could never be, but...she can't talk. I know a part of me made her that way too, because if she did talk.

It would break me a little.

I can't create a Margot. No one could. She was bright and fun, and sad because she failed her sister, and wanted desperately to make amends. So as much as I could, I had fun with her. I showered her in affection because she needed a sister, and I never had one. I never even shared a room before. I never stood up talking about nothing. I never slept around someone, first for warmth and then for actual warmth. She was my sister. I loved her a lot.

And now it's like she was never here. I mean, she never WAS technically, she was never a squid. But you know what I mean. It was like she was never part of my life. People have forgotten her, and where she is now, she'll have forgotten herself. She'll just be a wolf. All because some scientist needed to be cruel and take away her intelligence. I should have told myself that her "waking" from the dream was always possible.

I haven't forgotten. Me, her and Eda had fun. We were happy. Then Eda went, and a few months later, she did too. So I found a new home. I try to keep my family close. I love them. I brought new people in, and I love them too. I just wish this hole, where she still lives, didn't hurt so much.

It's a lot to ask for. But I think you knew that it would be the thing that brought me to you. The moment I saw a picture of you, with the bleeding roses and the sword in your hand, I knew. You understood. Understand.

Sometimes you're always carrying the sword, even as you bleed.

[She unfortunately did not realize that Tempest was here and had activated her Omni. Tempest was aware this was a bit of an invasion of privacy for her partner but was concerned. Very concerned].

Comments

[rosae]

I'd love to see it sometime. ( Rose gives a soft, sad smile. ) I'd like to learn more about her. Margot. And Eda too, if you like.

( The people Luz has mentioned who were so important to her — Rose wants to get to know them, even if it's only through the girl's memory. That's still something. It's still a way to help them live on. )

[imaglyphwitch]

I'll show it to you, promise!

[Luz smiles a little to herself, because she feels slightly happy that someone she considered akin to a mother figure was asking exactly what she hoped she would].

I'll start with Margot, actually, since she takes some understanding. So the world's she's from, I guess is sort of a dystopia where there are less humans now, and enough stuff's happened that animals can walk and talk and have formed their own cliques. Margot was the youngest of her wolf family, and her family took in this human, a girl named wolf, who they raised as their own, until the time they wanted their children to hunt her themselves. Now Margot and this girl were close, but Margot is still a kid, so she does what her parents says, and the girl not only gets away, she winds up killing and skinning the mom, wearing the skin afterward to remind her not to trust any "mutes."

Margot regrets their falling out to this day, or at least, afterward.