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deernet2022-02-01 11:36 am
imaglyphwitch) wrote in deernet2022-02-01 11:36 am
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[Accidental Transmission]
((Warnings: Stream of conscious, fairly depressed feelings thought aloud, mention of losing one's sentience))
[It was at the tower, the very top, one of the few times she didn't see Rapunzel there, and that was interesting because someone else was there. Luz had gone up to get away, aware of the feeling in her heart but not wanting to have that so openly displayed. As it happened, it was the first of February, she should have expected to see her, but her appearing now made so much sense to her].
You knew. Of course you did.
[Luz looked out into the snow-covered places of Trench, marveling it a moment].
Most days this would be a great view. It reminds me of the possibilities, of the places I haven't explored yet. Even if there are things here that terrify me, there's also a lot that's really interesting!
But. I just feel heavy in my heart right now. I...I miss her. I love my omen, I do, Tempest is a part of me I could never be, but...she can't talk. I know a part of me made her that way too, because if she did talk.
It would break me a little.
I can't create a Margot. No one could. She was bright and fun, and sad because she failed her sister, and wanted desperately to make amends. So as much as I could, I had fun with her. I showered her in affection because she needed a sister, and I never had one. I never even shared a room before. I never stood up talking about nothing. I never slept around someone, first for warmth and then for actual warmth. She was my sister. I loved her a lot.
And now it's like she was never here. I mean, she never WAS technically, she was never a squid. But you know what I mean. It was like she was never part of my life. People have forgotten her, and where she is now, she'll have forgotten herself. She'll just be a wolf. All because some scientist needed to be cruel and take away her intelligence. I should have told myself that her "waking" from the dream was always possible.
I haven't forgotten. Me, her and Eda had fun. We were happy. Then Eda went, and a few months later, she did too. So I found a new home. I try to keep my family close. I love them. I brought new people in, and I love them too. I just wish this hole, where she still lives, didn't hurt so much.
It's a lot to ask for. But I think you knew that it would be the thing that brought me to you. The moment I saw a picture of you, with the bleeding roses and the sword in your hand, I knew. You understood. Understand.
Sometimes you're always carrying the sword, even as you bleed.
[She unfortunately did not realize that Tempest was here and had activated her Omni. Tempest was aware this was a bit of an invasion of privacy for her partner but was concerned. Very concerned].
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[A joke for the sake of it. Also, Ruddiger was cute to make up for it].
I do have a small garden for her, but I think I want to do more. I don't want her to just fade away from memories.
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[He IS cute, it's how he gets away with his Crimes. ]
That's fair, you can always do more. How about something like...a statue? Or a fountain? Something more permanent that won't change with the seasons.
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[Luz thought Ruddiger was super cute. She had a thing about furry creatures. Most creatures].
I was shooting the idea to Fern about a sculpture. Do you think you might be able to help with it?
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Sure thing, Luz. I can help you with that. Rapunzel would probably be a good one to ask for help, too, she's very artistic.
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Thanks, I'd appreciate it! I've done a little bit of sculpting before, but nothing as involved as this. I want to make sure I do her justice.
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Definitely have to make sure we get the right spot for it.