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[thisislife]

[Lexi looks dreamy and uncertain and a little sad, but she's trying to smile]

I, um. Has anyone else talked to people from home through one of those portal things and, uh, gotten spoilers for their own life? Because I have and it's weird? I'm glad for some of it, sad for some of it and I kinda need to talk this out. If that's okay?

[there's a long pause as Lexi looks off to the side, and arranges Orville so he's sitting on her shoulder, Orville immediately moving in to comfort Lexi by snuffling at her neck. she reaches up idly to pet him]

Also. I'd kinda like a roommate? I live in Gaze in a Lemon Cake house. My room's the one with blue and yellow wallpaper. [a long pause] I've never lived on my own before and I don't think I like it.

((OOC: there will be spoilers for Season 2 of Euphoria, event log to follow later on because the boss' wife is in today, woe!))

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(text) | un: wrench

[wwrench]

You saw someone from home through a portal? And they were living in the future?

video; un: jk21a

[hearuthinking]

Can't say that's happened to me with the portals, but two of my people from home were here for a while and told me about shit that hasn't happened to me yet.

[thisislife]

Yeah? Maybe they're not in the future, maybe time is passing for them there just like it is for me here? That's what I'd put my money on, anyway?

[seeing Rue looking well-rested, clear-eyed, and almost happy had been a relief. seeing her sister...had been anything but]

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[adaine]

[She has Thoughts about the portals, and she does not trust them even remotely, but Lexi is clearly having a time and she's not going to smash a hammer into that with all her trauma based skepticism.]

I'm here if you want to talk, Lexi.

And um... I don't really have a house. I mostly live at the school or the orphanage. So, if it's okay with you, I can come stay for a bit?

[thisislife]

[Lexi looks visibly shaken]

...seriously? So it's not just me. It's not just me this is happening to. Thank fuck. [a pause] Even though I'm sorry it happened to you, uh...?

private (CW: drug addiction, toxic relationships)

[thisislife]

Really? Oh, thank you, thank you, thank you.

And you absolutely can stay for as long as you want! I have two free bedrooms, one with a twin bed and one with a queen. And I like to cook, so no worries there!

As for what I found out...It wasn't all bad. My best friend, Rue? She looked and sounded like she was doing good. Like she was staying clean because SHE wanted to, not because she wanted to for someone else.

But my sister, Cassie? That was ALL bad. She's furious with me, blames me for her toxic piece of shit boyfriend dumping her, and refuses to let me back into our shared room. So I'm apparently couch-surfing back home with mom getting my clothes for me out of the room.

[wwrench]

I didn't think that happened. I thought everything that happens here is just like the blink of an eye back there. [Or maybe that's changed. Wrench realizes that he isn't actually sure anymore. That somewhere along the way, it's simply stopped mattering to him. There's no one to miss him, so there's no good reason to be concerned.]

Did they act like you were missing? Did it seem like they could see into this place?

[thisislife]

Honestly, your guess is probably better than mine. I've only been here...this is my second month?

They acted like I had called them on Facetime. One of the conversations was nice and lasted a long time. The other was pretty short.

[wwrench]

Anything I say would only be a guess. Maybe better to talk to a scholar if you want something beyond speculation. The place some of us were before this one, that's what it was like there. It worked both ways. I went back home for years once, but when I got back only days had passed.

Do you think your mind might've just made it up? You said it was the future. Is it the kind of future you would've wanted?

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[kyley_b]

So I don't know shit about portals, and I haven't talked to anybody from home or even seen them, so I probably shouldn't say anything but...

Is that little dude your omen?

[hearuthinking]

Jason. Mine was good news; I'm guessing yours wasn't.

[thisislife]

[Lexi beams] Yeah! His name is Orville. I keep seeing people with wolves and dragons and stuff, but that's not really me? I'm pretty much harmless and so is this little guy.

What's your Omen?

[thisislife]

Yeah, maybe Never Mind would have some idea of what happened and why. They say he knows everything, so that seems like a decent chance to prove it. And holy shit. Home for years, but only days here? That's got to defy almost every law of physics and will give me a headache if I think about the logistics of it too much.

I don't know. Yes and no? It's complicated.

[wwrench]

Not to completely shatter your sense of time and space, but when I was back there, I didn't remember ever being anywhere else either.

Sorry, not my business anyway. I was just trying to think if it might be the kind of thing your subconscious would've invented because you wanted to hear it.

[kyley_b]

Orville. Dude, that's the cutest thing I've seen in weeks.

Oh, a big stupid orca named Willzyx. He's a dumbass.

And, like, don't be embarrassed about living on your own the first time being scary. The first time I lived alone I totally cried about it.

[thisislife]

That's both good and terrifying. Though, I wonder if in some way, it's proof of the multiverse theory, that hey, there are all these other Earths out there where someone did step on the butterfly which caused a tsunami somewhere else? And that there are other Earths with other us-es in them, too. So return that us to the multiverse we originally came from and yay! No real time has passed.

And I'm sorry for nerding out on you here, I was in college-prep physics back home.

No, it's okay. One of the things was something I'd want to hear. The other was something I was afraid I'd hear. So I guess it could be a trick of the mind?

[thisislife]

Hi, I'm Lexi. And, um, part of it was. The other part was what I was afraid was going to happen.

[thisislife]

Really? That's great, I'm so glad!

Wait, how did you pronounce the last part of his name? And an Orca! Do you have one of those huge aquarium things at home for him?

At least I'm not alone, then. I'm just so used to having my mom and my sister around. Mom watching on of her awful reality TV shows and Cassie...being Cassie. [she says with a rueful laugh]

[hearuthinking]

I wouldn't dwell on it. Nothin' you can do about it while you're here.

[kyley_b]

Really.

Will-zee-axe. Stupid, right? And nah he just floats through the air. He changes size,too. Usually he's only about as big as a Saint Bernard.

I know a few people who have crabs for omens, that's pretty unimpressive.

Oh god, yeah, I get that. I went away to university and suddenly I missed my family so much even though they bugged the shit out of me. You the oldest sibling?

[thisislife]

It's hard not to. But if Cassie is going to react like that...maybe I shouldn't do my play?

[thisislife]

Okay, this I have to see. Even in the wildest fantasy books I read, none of them had a floating Orca the size of a Saint Bernard.

Crabs? Seriously? And they haven't killed everyone because of the STD jokes yet?

Yeah, I'm kind of in the same boat. I would gladly watch another rerun of Little People, Big World if it meant that my mom was there, watching it. But, nope, I'm the little sister. Though...I kind of have to look after everyone else. It gets exhausting.

[hearuthinking]

Not sure what the fuck you're talkin' about, but sure.

[wwrench]

Could be. But in that case, maybe the portal was never meant to be your future? It might belong to a different version of you entirely. Or it could be a warning that it's just the most likely path, if things continue as they are? If you want to change it, maybe you have to do something different.

I guess that depends on what you make of the fact that we're all here. What's this place's purpose?

[thisislife]

It's rough, because I really wanted to do my play. But it's based on me, my sister, and all of her friends and it's about growing up and growing apart so those friendships kind of fade. Or are torn apart.

I wish I knew. Best I can figure is, it's one big social experiment to see how people react to situations they had no experience with before. Like the whole squid thing. Completely weird and impossible for most people.