Maybe. [He rests his elbows on his knees and his chin in his hands.]
But I think he'd be the first to say a lot of who he is because he was raised surrounded by his family. I can actually see him, in the situation you were in, playing the part of the perfect apprentice, to stay alive. Until - until he had enough time operating on his own to find other people and things to love. Finding his own path that way.
[Because he does have a hard time seeing any version of Obi-wan truly buying into power and cruelty, for their own sake. To protect people he loves, though? The Dark can call that way, too, Ezra knows from experience.]
I have literal nightmares about what I might have become if the Empire had found me before my adoptive family. Maybe I'd have been stubborn enough the Inquisitors or Vader would have just killed me, before I broke. But I can't know, can I?
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But I think he'd be the first to say a lot of who he is because he was raised surrounded by his family. I can actually see him, in the situation you were in, playing the part of the perfect apprentice, to stay alive. Until - until he had enough time operating on his own to find other people and things to love. Finding his own path that way.
[Because he does have a hard time seeing any version of Obi-wan truly buying into power and cruelty, for their own sake. To protect people he loves, though? The Dark can call that way, too, Ezra knows from experience.]
I have literal nightmares about what I might have become if the Empire had found me before my adoptive family. Maybe I'd have been stubborn enough the Inquisitors or Vader would have just killed me, before I broke. But I can't know, can I?