deernet | (VIDEO) — UN: BOMBSHELL

(the video begins of a zoom up of a pair of eyes. an animal to be exact. they blink curiously before it gets pulled back -- revealing it's a spider monkey holding the omni. he holds it up above him and even turns it upside-down and other various angles. hopefully the lovely people aren't easily to become motion sickness upon viewing this but if they do, their own fault really.)

Got it workin'?

(there's a voice coming from off camera; familiar to some or not. but the monkey looks off to the direction of the voice before turning the omni over so whoever is watching can now see jinx sitting in a chair -- slouching with her arm hanging over the top railing. there's a grin that slowly grows on her face, however, it's not... exactly a friendly kind. impish? troubling? dangerous? you'd be the judge. nevertheless, jinx hunches over now with both her arms drape over her knees -- looking directly at the omni.)

So! — Greetings people of.... whatever this place is. Kiiiinda forgot the name but not really important. I've been hearin' a lotta here and there that I've been here before. Don't really remember it, though. (a brief pause as she thinks.) Except the last time. I remember the last time but not the other times.

Buuuuuuuuut ♪! Since I've been here a whoooole BUNCH of times that means I gotta have some friends here, right?

(she bites her bottom lip to hold back a giggle as the video suddenly wavers around. but quickly it straightens up and focus with a closer look of jinx (it seems she's the one holding it now) in a bird's eye view. her spider monkey climbs on her body then curling himself along her shoulder and neck while also looking up at the feed along with her.)

So if ya know me, contact me. OH! And you got like, thirty minutes to convince me why my former self even bothered wasting my breath on you. Don't keep me waitin' too long 'cuz I get bored easily.

(a beat.)

ACTUALLY, NEVERMIND!!! — Decided to change it to twenty minutes. (her spider monkey seems to be screeching in laughter at jinx's sudden time change but resumes on nuzzling it's head against her cheek.)

OH OH! One more big thing. There's someone here by the name of Vi. If you know her, contact me too. So we can aaaaalll be friends and get along. No shame in that, right?

(she says this but there's something about that smile that really makes it... off putting. regardless though, jinx hums quietly as she cocks her head to the side.)

Tick-tock, tick-tock.

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Perhaps a celebrity selfie.

I can handle guns and grenades.

might be worth it
im gonna have a problem with that one some day i can feel it in my squid bones

shell be so disappointed when you do handle it
or maybe youll make a new friend its hard to say
shes a loose cannon but shes trying really hard

Why?
Squid bones.

Sleepers are tough. Gotta learn that somehow.

already slipped past her once
i dont much like her cherry picked version of justice
she doesnt give rules and then punishes people who break the rules she kept to herself
or changed just cause
and half the ppl she punishes are because she or some other pthumerian decided to stir the pot and make them do things

add that to my sister and if she gets in the line of fire weve got a problem

i wouldve said i felt it in my bones bones but were squids under this so
fake bones

yeah shes gonna learn
hopefully sooner than later
id rather get it over with than just wait

Slipped past how?

How should people's influenced actions get treated? How should those impacted be permitted to react?

Bodies are malleable.

I am amenable to helping her learn.

remember july?
i stole a bunch of stuff right off people
just a good old fashioned mugging
messed up some shops
broke into a house
hurt people pretty bad
not even sleepers
put a trenchie in the infirmary
ended up locked in a basement over the shop stuff
could have gotten my hands cut off for that so i dodged that bullet
maybe?

maybe shes just waiting idk
either way i wouldnt have done any of that without her "help"
no matter how upset i was

idk no ones really talked about it besides maybe having clear rules
i mean its one thing for me to

ok so the guy i hurt i tried to make up for it myself
but he was like fuck no
but i kept just helping out at the infirmary anyway to try and clean up some of the damage
i tried bringing him food and saying i was sorry
but he was still angry which i get but worse than that
he was scared of me so i stopped going to his room
bc it was just making him worse

so maybe less reckoning cutting people down and maybe more the people affected getting to decide

bodies are weird blood is weirder
here

im glad youre cool with that bc im not
but also i am bc i have to be
im in this for real and ive got to have her back
in all the ways even the rly hard ones

Most people have been through tough times, situations you thought you'd never [insert line here]. In Trench, that's any given day. We're fumbling though it. Eventually, it needs more.

We have to live here together.

People have been through a lot. It's hard.

Take care of yourself. That's part of taking care of her.

a lot of [insert line here] so much of it
some peoples lines are like wow
youre right we do
and i wish wed do it better myself included

it is hard and it sucks and i feel like i need to do better
but whats the use of even trying to do better when its like they want to set us back or make us do worse
some of them not all
some are helpful

i know
i know that even more now and that worries me

We have agency.

We see the forces acting upon us clearly, instead of being blind to it. We can use that. Fuck up. Improve. Fuck up better.

What do you do for you?

fuck up better.
i like that.

realistic goal: planned fuckups but with improvements

you mean like to relax or for fun?

Exactly.

Lets say both. For well being and for fun.

i meet with a couple friends to hang out and talk. learned volleyball from one so theres that too
i like to play on the beach when its not extra angry
peoplewatch. the rooftops in the machine and cellar door are my fave but others are good
reading and the movies at the entertainment feed
just watched the first "rocky" and i dig it
more shows about mysteries and fancy ladies solving them
not sure if ninja school counts but its helping me manage things
like anger and thinking stuff through
oh shit yeah i have a tree in my room i like to sit in sometimes
thats cool reading in it watching shows on my wall
does food count
i could say fighting here too
and the friend thats coaching me with vball is teaching me to meditate too
im shit at it but thats just cause i need to practice more
doing tattoos is pretty fun no complaints yet
well not big ones

what do you do for fun and well being
if you dont mind sharing

You're doing a lot.

I:
- spar
- cook
- quality time
- practice new weapons

i forgot to add that i cook too
i like eating better but i like making food for people
and for me
quality time sounds good
learning new weapons or practicing old ones?

It's worth eating better food and sharing.

Both. Never met a weapon I didn't like.

💯💯💯
ill bring something to the outpost next time
combining working with good eating: efficient
but not at the same time
got a weapon u like best?

It will make a better lunch.

My primary weapons are a rapier and a spear.

better food makes a better worker
at least in my case
a rapiers a fancy sword right
you throw the spear or use it like a really long fuck off stick?

It does.

Rapiers are a one-handed sword, traditionally used with an offhand weapon.
I use it every way.

u cool with someone watching u practice
without (D)istractions?
👀

Sure.
You interested in morning stretches?

💯💯💯
shoot me a time and place

No (D)istractions.
Sanctuary. 1.5 hours before work.

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