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Good evening, all. I think this is what is termed a 'bandwagon.' However, as I imagine we will all be busy dead, dying, or in the process of resurrecting soon, I thought I had better commit before October.

I'm opening a bakery and sweets shop.

[Lysithea pans the camera to a table that is covered with pans filled with dozens of buns, cakes, and confections of different colors. It really looks extremely well done. One would imagine that Lysithea applies herself with the same intensity to any task she undertakes.]

Everything will be sourced from traditional Fódlan desserts, passed down through family histories and collected by hand in this book. I've realized that if I'm not the one who makes these treats, I'm... never going to taste them again. So I thought I should share.

[The view changes to an enormous tome currently open to a page titled Saghert and Cream in script prominently displaying a luscious picture of some kind of fruit and cream concoction. It really looks like this was drawn by hand.]

I'm baking from my room for now. If you want anything here, you can drop by or I'll bring it over. If you want delivery, you've got to get at least a dozen, because frankly, I'm not running all over town to give you one sweet bun. I'll open a proper location when it's not Death Month.

...Thanks.

[She signs off after a moment's awkward hesitation, as if she's not sure what to do next.]

[video pt 2, ten minutes later]

It's -- me again. Upon further reflection, I have no idea how to run a business, at all, apart from the portion where you confidently declare it in public.

I would... appreciate advice.

And help. If you are willing to be paid in cake.

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I'm not talking about anyone else's maturation, Lysithea, just yours. I remember when you were in Deerington, you defined yourself by the war at home and how you wouldn't live long. You were more fatalistic then. Now I can see that you have a lot more to think about, that you can actually live in this place if you wanted. I'm glad you changed a little bit.

[Oh right. Yes].

Well. I've always felt I didn't really deserve the friends I have. Before the Isles, I didn't really have people I was close to other than my mom, and I can't escape the feeling I get sometimes that the people I care about are going to get sick of me. I always feel like I'm going to sabotage my own bonds by being myself.

Oh - I meant... I think that feeling bound to a past that you ought to leave behind is a part of everyone's maturation process. But thank you. I appreciate the insight.

[To be fair, it was hard to think about defining yourself any other way when there was a ticking time bomb on your life. There were things that needed to be accomplished - and Deerington had not been a part of that plan.]

You've mentioned that before, I remember. Your anxiety about making friends and how you didn't fit in.

Do you have plenty of friends now?

You know me, just saying things how I see them! Besides, I didn't know if you would come back to us. I'm really glad you did!

[Personally, Luz did think she saw a significant change in Lysithea and wanted to help her however she could. Of course, wanting that didn't mean she could actually make that happen, but it was nice to dream].

I've always had a decent amount of friends here! It's just...I always feel like I'll do something to lose them. People come into my life, and then they go, and I always get scared one day they'll realize they've just been humoring a needy, uncool girl who's nowhere near as impressive as the people around them.

[She had actually not admitted this to anyone, not even her own housemates or Korra, so she was actually trusting Lysithea with a lot here].

[Lysithea considers this thoughtfully for a moment.]

You're... fourteen, right? Something like that.

When I was your age, I was constantly trying to prove myself. The people around me frustrated me enormously. I felt as if they didn't take me seriously - that if I didn't keep pushing, they would leave me behind.

I think the most important thing I've learned as I've grown older is that most of the time... nobody feels as negatively about you as you do. Honestly, everyone's too busy worrying about themselves to think bad things about you.

[She hadn't exactly been anxious like Luz, just... extremely insecure.]

I don't know if that helps. You're my friend, of course. I won't leave you behind.

Yeah.

It does help, actually. I get that same feeling, about being left behind, but it's all bunched up around the kind of person I was back on Earth. I don't have anywhere near those kinds of social interactions anymore, and I have more friends here now, I just find myself always going back to those feelings.

You're probably right. It's definitely one of those things where I make it bigger in my head than it actually is.

I'm lucky to have you, thanks. Now I just have to stop feeling a little jealous that you're not closer to my age and I have to start thinking of you like an older sister now.

It is bizarre, isn't it? And I... guess I did leave you behind, in a sense. Most of my friends have always been older than me, so -- I'm closer in age to many of them now. But I'm sorry I've gone and made things more difficult.

I don't have any younger siblings now, but I'd be lucky to have a younger sister like you.

I don't know that there's anything to be jealous of, though. You'll grow older, too - and... I know it's a boring phrase to trot out, but there are a lot of things you'll miss in the present day if you grow up too fast.

It's not your fault, of course! You had things you had to do back in your world, and I'm honestly really glad that you did them. You look more confident and you seem...less intimidated?

Really? [Now Luz's eyes got all big misty, because the last time she had a person she considered a sister, she was honestly the happiest she'd been].

It's kind of late for that in some ways though, right? Even though I haven't physically grown, we've all pretty much grown against our will thanks to Deerington. At least you got to forget about it for a little while and focus in the things in your world.

Are they at least a little better there?

Ehm.

[Lysithea pauses delicately.]

...No.

Let's not derail, though. We can speak of the war another time. For now... just know that you have many of the qualities that people search for in true friends.

[Lysithea has the power to make even a declaration of friendship come out somewhat stiffly, even if her words are earnest.]

And we must learn to leave behind what burdens us. Those fears and those old selves.

Oh.

[Well, one could hope].

I'm sure you know that the same can be said about you. You can be a little standoffish, but you've always been kind at heart, and strong in actions! I'm glad I can be friends with you!

[Luz was fine with that- that was just how Lysithea sounded].

You're right about that. I don't want the things that burdened me in the past to follow me here. There's a lot more to be concerned about in this world, I feel like we've barely scratched the surface.

[Lysithea is a little older and a little better at accepting compliments. Still, she stumbles through a few words before clearing her throat.]

Thanks, Luz.

[The smile is genuine enough that it might make up for any lack of articulation.]

Well, I was thinking more about... stepping forward past what burdened us. Although I suppose that does entail figuring out what's happening here. For now, though... I hope that this endeavor will bring me some fulfillment.

What about you, Luz? Is there something you want to chase here?

Sure! You know I'm glad you're back!

I'm still working on that. I thought I had it figured out when we were in the process of leaving, but I think I still needed to work on feeling bad about what happened to me in Deerington overtime, and then Margot and the Doctor didn't come, so...I just started to feel bad again.

I think it will. I don't think you would have come back unless you really wanted to.

I wanted to see what I could be, what person I'd become after everything. There were some bad things that went down, but I feel like I could be stronger because of them. I want to continue down, and see who I am now. And I wanted to do that with all the friends I'd made in Deerington.

That's... a strong desire.

[Lysithea nods slowly in response to Luz's thoughts.]

It seems as if it is malleable - open to a number of possibilities. If you have different paths and options you wish to explore, I'm sure your friends are willing to help.

I should certainly be happy to.

But I understand what you mean about 'feeling bad'. I think there's not been much time to process.

I think so. It's enough that I wanted to be here, and see things through.

[Whatever this life offered, Luz wanted to know where it would go].

They're all a part of it, because they have their own wishes and desires too. But I'm happy that all of ours, to some extent, can come together.

[What that meant now was anyone's guess].

I think we're all still sorting who we are with who we were, and that will take some time to figure out. I know I'm getting there, at least.

Right.

[Lysithea lapses into silence after that for a few moments, as if deep in thought.]

Well -- I have to get back to the baking. But come by sometime and we can discuss your ambitions further. Over some cake.

I've found a place to stay, by the way, so you needn't worry about that.

You do that! I can't wait to see what you do with the baking! Please let me know if there's any way I can help! You know I'll be over!

Oh, great! Where's that?

Gaze, like I thought I would. It's much nicer than my place in Deerington.

Come by anytime. My address is [####]

Oh great! Can't wait to see it!

I'll be there! You want a housewarming?

Oh, no. That's perfectly alright, thank you.

[The last thing Lysithea really wants is a lot of attention on her.]

Well.

I guess I'm opening up the store, so -- my grand opening is my housewarming?

Right! SURE.

[Luz gave her friend a wink. You are so getting something, Lysithea].

Might want to make sure people know that, they're more inclined to give you something to help you with your new store!

No, no! That's perfectly fine. There's no need for any such fuss.

[Lysithea blushes a little bit.]

But anyway... I'll speak to you again soon, Luz. And come by for cakes or sweets any time.

Fuss, shmuss! You're special, you get special stuff!

[Luz was not wavering on this]!

Sure, ok! I might do that, come close to Halloween!

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