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[prescind]

( he doesn't typically make use of the network, content to read and stay within his own boundaries but he's feeling a little thoughtful today so.

so, here he is. )

if you had the choice, would you stay alive eternally and watch everyone you love eventually die or would you die young and miss out on a life lived?

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[payingfordeliverance]

That's simply a sensible way to survive, is it not?

However, something I have learned the hard way is that "surviving" begins to feel hollow, in time. Not enough. So.

[prescind]

so.

yeah, i know what you mean.
sometimes, it's just going through the motions.

cw: vague reference to past suicidal ideation

[payingfordeliverance]

Yes.

As I recall, when I was a young man asking myself much these same questions in a more short-term sense, one of my first steps back into the light was the realization that if I wanted to have cake for breakfast each day I could, and if I were a proper brat about it nobody would bother trying to convince me otherwise. When the big things are awful it's the little things that get you through, you know?

[prescind]

that's a good point
and i think it's something i know
but don't really think about

if that makes sense.

[payingfordeliverance]

One needs reminders of this and that from time to time. Just as a professional with years of experience can only benefit from reviewing the basics.

[prescind]

maybe that ought to be what i do after all this
just kind of
take stock

[payingfordeliverance]

It would only be helpful to you, I think. To hear the thoughts of others like this offers guidance, but in the end, these are the sorts of questions you can really only answer for your own self, right?

[prescind]

yeah.

it's good to hear the various opinions though. to know what people are thinking.

[payingfordeliverance]

And I see you've received a great many responses.

Then, I hope that in sifting through them, you'll be able to reach some worthwhile conclusions for yourself.

[prescind]

i hope so too.

i have a lot to think about, at least.