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[He was going to send this as anonymous, honest to gods, but then his omen walked over his Omni while he was getting a drink and sent this.]

So what is therapy exactly? Aside from 'talk to someone to make you feel better', I know that much.

What sort of books would one look for to find advice for doing therapy?

Is this even something I should be trying to do for someone?

[That last bit he'd been planning on taking out, but. Omens.]

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[He stills instantly when she pets him, tail curling up cautiously and eyes closing. It's been a while since someone's pat him on the head.]

I'm... I'm trying. I'm really trying.

[He drapes against her, body going slack against her smaller frame.]

I'm... sorry. I shouldn't be making such a scene... I'm just... trying to make sure that people don't get hurt and I keep getting hurt and I can only take so much... but I don't know how to not get hurt.

[ She hums, though the hum sounds more like a 'no' than a 'yes' in this case. ]

Like I said.. It's alright.

[ Apparently Chizuru stands by that one. The pace of her hand doesn't slow down, gently patting his head even now. ]

You could make a scene in front of me. [ Even if she doesn't consider this one. It's just Nara'a talking about his feelings - and how could that possibly be bad? But if he perceives this to be a scene of some kind, then.. ] I don't mind.

[ The situation he's describing.. well, that is kind of overwhelming though. But Chizuru wants to help him navigate it all the same.

It's important, if having a solution to all of this would make him feel better. ]

Do you think you'd worry less about getting hurt if there were better ways of treating you once you were hurt..?

... Yes, probably. I mean... I started asking about this stuff because I'm helping someone - but... it'd probably be helpful for me, too.

I... I'm not ignorant to how much hurt I'm carrying. It's... ah. I just... know that someone needs to carry things, and it ends up being me a lot of the time...

[He doesn't mind, but... frankly he's emotionally exhausted and has been for a very long time.]

Well.. Palebloods are supposed to, um.. be able to do things with emotions, right..?

[ Chizuru sounds a little uncertain as she says it, mostly because even after how long she's already been here in Trench she's still sometimes a little uncertain of how blood magic is supposed to work.

Especially when she's been terrible at it so far.

But she's pretty sure she did hear something about that.. ]

And I'm-- um, I'm training my magic. [ Or trying to, anyway. But Chizuru says it so earnestly, like it's a formal declaration, and she slowly pulls back the hand that had been rubbing his head. ] So maybe if I learn more, I could help soothe your emotions a little with it..?

Maybe... that'd be nice.

[His own emotions are a bit of a storm, and not one he likes diving into. He sighs and pulls back a little bit.]

Just... don't push yourself too hard for my sake, okay? I don't want you to get hurt just because you were trying to help me.

[ She shakes her head. ]

I'll be fine.

[ Then again, maybe those words can't always be trusted when it comes to Chizuru, since she's so prone to saying she's fine even when she's not..

But at least she does genuinely believe there's no way she could get hurt in the process of this, so she's not lying either. ]

You're such a precious friend of mine, you know? [ She smiles at him as she says it. It's very warm - enough so to make her blush just the tiniest bit, even in the face of his heaviness, his sighs. ] I want you to be able to feel better, even if it's just a tiny bit. And sometimes you need the help of friends for that, and that's completely alright.

[He doesn't trust that 'I'll be fine', but he's not going to call it out right now.]

I'm trying. I just... don't like putting my problems on other people. ... I know you don't, too. But it's... I know my... everything... can be a lot to handle. It's like... when you've gotten used to an injury and you don't notice how it hurts anymore after a long time.

It wouldn't be putting your problems on me though if I figure out how to use those powers, right? Then it'd be more like.. like a doctor helping ease your injury, or get rid of it!

[ To continue the metaphor, that is, and she smiles encouragingly at him. ]

It's just that it might take a while.. I-I haven't really practiced my magic a whole lot yet, and I don't know how to use it.. [ But she should be able to do this if she just practices, right?

In theory. That's how paleblood is supposed to work, she thinks. ]

It's okay. I don't blame you.

[He lifts a hand and strokes her hair gently, fondly.]

I don't really know how to use my blood magic either. So you're not alone.

Then let's both figure it out. Learn about it.

[ Slowly, if they have to.

Since Chizuru feels like it sure won't be going fast on her end - though she wouldn't necessarily assume the same about Nara'a. She thinks so much of him, and it's obvious in the way she smiles at him now, letting him pet her hair without resistance. ]

Just let me carry even the tiniest bit of your burden. I can handle it.

I'll... do my best. I'm not... it's not that my friends at home don't care, it's just that they've got their own sort of problems.

So I'm not used to this sort of thing...

[ Chizuru does wonder for a tiny moment what that means. The unkind thing to assume here would be to think that they're all so self-absorbed that they don't even pay attention to an obviously suffering Nara'a..

.. but of course a girl as kind as Chizuru doesn't go with that. Instead she assumes Nara'a just doesn't talk about his problems with them since he's afraid of being a burden.

At least it makes him being so open with her feel like an honour, and she continues to smile at him. ]

Well, then you can rely on me from now on!

[ Look at that, some actual energy in Chizuru's voice. It can be rare, considering how shy and overly polite she can be.. But this is some genuine charm more befitting of a girl her age, the kind of attitude she only shows around her friends. ]

I'll let you know if I figure out some more about my powers, alright..? And until then-- let's spend time together anyway when there's nothing too bad going on. I feel like doing fun things with friends always helps me a lot with my mood. [ So it might do the same for him, even when she doesn't have other ways of helping him just yet. ]

[He smiles a bit and pulls her into a loose hug.]

Thank you, Chizuru. You're a very good friend. ... And we should spend more time together. I just... never really want to intrude, and I don't know if you're busy...

... Usually I'm patrolling at night, but otherwise I'm not doing all that much.

It's alright! You'd never be intruding.

[ She shakes her head as she says it, still smiling. It does make her words sound very genuine - like she truly would never mind.

Mostly because she's just the kind of person to make time for other people when they need it. ]

Sometimes I'm at work-- um, I work at the Roost, so if you can't reach me but really need to see me or talk to me, you can find me there! [ She's pretty flexible otherwise.. ] Really.. I'd be happier if you came to see me when you need it even if I happen to be busy, rather than you not coming to see me at all, alright?

Ah, that's Manabu's place, right? I can stop by... it'd be nice to have a place to go to after patrolling.

[And with Chizuru he won't be anxious about open drinks. He's had too much trauma with that.]

I'll... do my best. It doesn't come naturally to me, but a lot of things didn't until I practiced them I suppose...

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