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[Everything seems... frustrating. Everything seems like it's stewing. He wanders around, trying to find something to do other than swatting bugs and killing (and sometimes saving) beasts.]

[But is everything really... how it's supposed to be? He's not sure. He takes a crystal out of his pocket and stares at it for a while. He's not sure how to use the magic here - he's tried, but maybe because it crosses the rift he can't call upon others? He huffs in frustration, curling up a little bit.]

]But he doesn't let go of the crystal. This crystal, which means so much to him, that came to him through a twist of fate. ... But was it really fate? Or was it always going to happen?]

[Eventually, he grabs his omni and writes out a post. Anonymously, because... well. He doesn't want people to worry. Even if it'll probably be obvious that it's him...]

Is who you were in the past important to who you are now?

I would have said yes, but some days... some days I'm not sure. I don't know anymore.

Everything's so complicated and I don't even know if who I was is who I am now...

Maybe this was stupid to ask. Sorry.

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Well, I know I'm not who I used to be. I used to hate the people that I had been, but now I know they were only children, and none of it was their fault. I learned very much from being them, and that allows me to make better choices now. I don't think there's very much use in worrying about who you are or who you were. I think the only thing that matters is what you choose to do, when you have the chance.

Well. The 'me' from then was something... entirely different from who I am now. And yet, we're not so different. And I don't know how much of that is due to him or due to other things.

I agree that what you do matters, but... the past keeps coming back to haunt me.

The past always haunts everybody. If you try to run from it and become someone else, it will turn into corruption and eat away at you. The only thing to do is learn from your mistakes and make what amends you can. Anyone can choose to be kind, even if they haven't done it before.

What if you don't even have a whole soul for it to eat away at? Not as much as some people, anyway.

And I know people can change, can choose to be kind. The issue here is... where that kindness comes from. I don't know if it's from the past or the present.

I can tell you people's souls are bigger than anyone thinks. If someone here had lost enough of theirs to make a difference, anyone with the right training would be able to see it. There isn't anybody here like that now.

[sansa is talking about soul injuries on the level of horcruxes and severed daemons. the souls of fully realized people are too big and complicated for her to sense anything less than that at this time.]

I don't think there is any use in wondering where kindness comes from, unless you believe it to be false. Everyone is who they are because of everything that has happened to them in the past; it's true as much of people who never had to be anyone else as it is of someone who's had to be very many people. It doesn't matter why you choose to be kind; it only matters that you do.

I suppose. It's just that souls used to be... denser. More complete than they are now, at least in my world. But maybe it's enough.

I suppose you're right. I just... don't know what it would be like to be different than how I am. Even corrupted, I couldn't get away from helping people.

Some people might lose an arm, or a leg, or an eye. Most soul injuries are like that; it might feel strange and make some things difficult, and you can miss what you lost and wish it never happened, but only someone very rude and stupid would say it makes you any less complete.

If you can find Bausphomette, you might like to talk about all of this with them. They helped me very much last year, when I felt I didn't know who I was. But the truth is you can be whatever kind of person you'd like to be, as long as it isn't hurting anyone.

Well I've seen someone call me that, but... well. He was rude.

Maybe. I don't really talk to the patrons very much. I feel like I should know who I am, but I know who I was. I'm not sure anymore.

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