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[aetherweaver]

[Everything seems... frustrating. Everything seems like it's stewing. He wanders around, trying to find something to do other than swatting bugs and killing (and sometimes saving) beasts.]

[But is everything really... how it's supposed to be? He's not sure. He takes a crystal out of his pocket and stares at it for a while. He's not sure how to use the magic here - he's tried, but maybe because it crosses the rift he can't call upon others? He huffs in frustration, curling up a little bit.]

]But he doesn't let go of the crystal. This crystal, which means so much to him, that came to him through a twist of fate. ... But was it really fate? Or was it always going to happen?]

[Eventually, he grabs his omni and writes out a post. Anonymously, because... well. He doesn't want people to worry. Even if it'll probably be obvious that it's him...]

Is who you were in the past important to who you are now?

I would have said yes, but some days... some days I'm not sure. I don't know anymore.

Everything's so complicated and I don't even know if who I was is who I am now...

Maybe this was stupid to ask. Sorry.

Comments

un: eudaimonikos | text

[eudaimonikos]

Depends how far back you go, personally. I used to be a real dick. But, if I wasn't that way back then, I wouldn't be how I am now.

I don't think you need to stress yourself out about it.

[Anonymous]

[aetherweaver]

Try about twelve thousand years. The 'me' then was... very different.

text; un: quibbler

[creidim]

I think yes. I like to think who we are at our cores never truly changes.

Maybe I'm different now compared to who I was some seven years ago. Or even four years ago, before I ended up in the Dream. But I still think I'm the same person deep down, too. And that person is important to me, and it's especially important not to forget that person.

[Anonymous]

[aetherweaver]

What if... you were someone else altogether?

text | un: graham crackers

[possessum]

I think my past self is important but not in a way that I'm like.... proud of
More in a way like... he still shapes who I am now. The things I think and feel now are because of him
I wish I could forget him

Are you thinking about how this place has changed you? Or meaning this about something else?

[Anonymous]

[aetherweaver]

I don't think I can forget who I was. Or who 'I' was. I've learned too much.

The things I think and feel... I don't know how much are because of him and how much aren't.


Yes and no. Some of the first, more of the latter.

un: countrymouse

[overlies]

I suppose that depends on if the past haunts you.

[Anonymous]

[aetherweaver]

In ways most probably can't imagine, yes.

text; anonymous

[dohaeris]

Well, I know I'm not who I used to be. I used to hate the people that I had been, but now I know they were only children, and none of it was their fault. I learned very much from being them, and that allows me to make better choices now. I don't think there's very much use in worrying about who you are or who you were. I think the only thing that matters is what you choose to do, when you have the chance.

[Anonymous]

[aetherweaver]

Well. The 'me' from then was something... entirely different from who I am now. And yet, we're not so different. And I don't know how much of that is due to him or due to other things.

I agree that what you do matters, but... the past keeps coming back to haunt me.

text | un: duty

[martyrofduty]

Important, yes. All defining, no.

[Anonymous]

[aetherweaver]

Where does the definition start? Where does it end?

text; un: lookingforshinsengumi

[tealeafs]

[ Well, this sure seems like a cry for help if Chizuru has ever seen one. She hasn't even realized who exactly this is yet - especially since such things tend to fly right over her head - but she just can't resist someone who seems like they need help.

So.. ]

if you are so worried about it
that must mean that who you were in the past is important to you
right
?

[Anonymous]

[aetherweaver]

Yes, but partially because people from the past keep showing up in some form.

And it feels like they want me to be him rather than me.

Unless the me that's now is because of him.

(TXT) — UN: BOMBSHELL

[opheliac]

Nope!

[Anonymous]

[aetherweaver]

[That's... direct.]

Why do you think that? Do you not like who you were?

text; un: grollschwert

[hauntedsavior]

Doesn't seem stupid to me.
It's probably only as important as you want it to be, which ain't a very helpful answer.
But I think that, like. If you're trying to learn from the person you used to be,
(Even if that person is 12,000 years old,)
Then it only matters until you think you've gotten everything you need from them.

I think who we are is the sum of everyone we've met and everyone we've been, but if you know who I am, you're probably thinking "no shit she thinks that".
At the same time, if you spend too much time trying to recapture who you used to be, life is gonna blow right by you.

[aetherweaver]

I don't want to go back to the past. I'm tired of trying to fix things that way.

The thing is that I don't want to be him, I want to be me. But how much of me is the person who came before?

I just don't know.

text | un: echo

[individualized]

Yes. I am not the same, but I believe the learning process was important.

[aetherweaver]

It's a bit different in terms of situation, I think. I was someone totally different. Like... literally another person. So I don't know how much of me is that person.

text | un: sds

[fogsong]

Yes. She isn't who I am now, not entirely, but I exist as I am because she gave up everything she was to create me. That makes her pretty fucking important.

Why would it matter if you're not who you once were? That still makes them important. They're a part of you.

[aetherweaver]

What if people want you to be that person to them? But you can't. I can't.

Text; un: darkness

[survivalthroughhate]

Everything I have become today is a direct result of who I used to be. I would not have been able to turn into a better person if I had not started off as a terrible one. So it matters a great deal to me. That is why I try not to forget the past.

[aetherweaver]

What if you were literally a different person, not just metaphorically one?

text un: vi

[faceblocks]

not stupid at all
its important to me that i dont keep doing the same stupid shit as past me

but theres a whole world out there of new stupid shit

[aetherweaver]

I just want to be me. Not who I used to be.

People keep showing up who remember him, though.