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[aetherweaver]

[Everything seems... frustrating. Everything seems like it's stewing. He wanders around, trying to find something to do other than swatting bugs and killing (and sometimes saving) beasts.]

[But is everything really... how it's supposed to be? He's not sure. He takes a crystal out of his pocket and stares at it for a while. He's not sure how to use the magic here - he's tried, but maybe because it crosses the rift he can't call upon others? He huffs in frustration, curling up a little bit.]

]But he doesn't let go of the crystal. This crystal, which means so much to him, that came to him through a twist of fate. ... But was it really fate? Or was it always going to happen?]

[Eventually, he grabs his omni and writes out a post. Anonymously, because... well. He doesn't want people to worry. Even if it'll probably be obvious that it's him...]

Is who you were in the past important to who you are now?

I would have said yes, but some days... some days I'm not sure. I don't know anymore.

Everything's so complicated and I don't even know if who I was is who I am now...

Maybe this was stupid to ask. Sorry.

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[aetherweaver]

It is. Six years I spent living as a tool. I know no one intended me to be one, but that's what I was. A tool to save everyone. And now I've spent a year here, and... I don't know.

I still protect people, but it's... because I want to, not because I was told to. I don't have that expectation anymore... except from myself. I just don't know which 'self' it's from - me or him.

[creidim]

That's an awful lot to put on one person, and a complicated frame of mind to live in. No wonder. But you're still not very far removed from that life, either. A year is no time at all.

I think because of the fact that you want to makes it from you. Your actions are your own, I'd consider that being from yourself, not him.

[aetherweaver]

No, I'm not. It feels like a long time and a short time all at once. I don't know - there are people here who have been here for several years.

You're probably right. I'm probably overthinking it. I'm trying not to, but it's a bad habit of mine.