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[aetherweaver]

[Everything seems... frustrating. Everything seems like it's stewing. He wanders around, trying to find something to do other than swatting bugs and killing (and sometimes saving) beasts.]

[But is everything really... how it's supposed to be? He's not sure. He takes a crystal out of his pocket and stares at it for a while. He's not sure how to use the magic here - he's tried, but maybe because it crosses the rift he can't call upon others? He huffs in frustration, curling up a little bit.]

]But he doesn't let go of the crystal. This crystal, which means so much to him, that came to him through a twist of fate. ... But was it really fate? Or was it always going to happen?]

[Eventually, he grabs his omni and writes out a post. Anonymously, because... well. He doesn't want people to worry. Even if it'll probably be obvious that it's him...]

Is who you were in the past important to who you are now?

I would have said yes, but some days... some days I'm not sure. I don't know anymore.

Everything's so complicated and I don't even know if who I was is who I am now...

Maybe this was stupid to ask. Sorry.

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[aetherweaver]

I do the same sort of work the past me did.

I don't know if that's because of me or him.

[martyrofduty]

The work on yourself. Your issues don't leave on their own.

[aetherweaver]

... I suppose I should make this clear. The 'old me' I'm talking about isn't metaphorically a different person. He literally was.

But part of him is now part of me.

[martyrofduty]

What parts of him?

[aetherweaver]

Part of his soul.

[martyrofduty]

With that, his memories? More?

[aetherweaver]

Not his memories. Part of his power. And apparently, personality.

At least according to those who knew him.

[martyrofduty]

[ There it is. People who knew him. People who feel like they know them now. ]

Anything of his looks or name?

You have big decisions to make.

[aetherweaver]

I don't know his true name. Sometimes in dreams I think I almost hear it, but then it cuts out. And I've never seen him - even if I did he'd probably have a mask covering part of his face.

Also my species didn't exist back then.



I know. And I never know if I make the right ones. It's worked out so far, but my luck can't be infinite.

[martyrofduty]

Here with the people he knew:

1. Come clean, or not.
2. Break clean, or not.

Your call.

[aetherweaver]

Oh, they're not here. I do wish they were in some ways... but the people who knew him are dead.

At least, as far as I'm aware they're all dead. But the past keeps coming up to bite me.

[martyrofduty]

They could always wash up.

You define who you are. Sometimes it takes work.

Who do you want to be?

[aetherweaver]

I don't know. I don't want to carry everything myself... but I know I'm going to end up the sort of person who will anyway.

I just wanted to study. I didn't want to get involved in saving the world, but I did anyway.

[martyrofduty]

With an attitude like that, you will.

Change yourself. It takes effort. Choices, day by day, moment by moment.

[aetherweaver]

I end up helping people because I don't want to let them get hurt.

But maybe I don't have to do it alone.

[martyrofduty]

You're not the only one. Find a buddy. Find five. Change what needs to be changed.

You can do it.

[aetherweaver]

It's hard when friends just sort of end up happening to you. I grew up away from people, so making an active attempt at finding friends is different than what I'm used to.

But I can try.

[martyrofduty]

You cannot guarantee other people. You can only commit. Be the friend you wish to have. Once you know them, be the friend they wish for.

[aetherweaver]

... You're right. Thank you.

I'll do my best to do that.

[martyrofduty]

You're welcome.

Make sure you do. [ Duty pauses a moment. Friendship cannot be manufactured. ] Want to grab a drink sometime?

[aetherweaver]

... Sure. I might be hesitant on revealing myself to some people, but you've been nothing but good as long as I've known you.