video: un; just.rey (set after the Palpatine plot)

[makesrocksfloat]

[Someone has been having a month. technically two. so she looks almost combative when she asks]

Right, apparently I--me--some version of me has been here before.

I'm asking who knew me, what they knew about me, and if they want to keep knowing me.

[private to Kylo Ren]

Did you know?

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[onerthes]

...

[She breathed in slowly and then sighed, a long drawn out one.]

She disappeared six months ago. I am lonely... to an extent, but when I did not see the squids this month, I accepted that I might never see her again. I love her, but I will be able to continue. I know she's safe. That's what matters to me. [Not entirely true, but close enough.] I am not willing to live my life pining for her forever. I just am not as good as the Doorway in this.

Safe? Oh! [She nodded] You are as safe as you can be in this town. Nobody is thinking ill of you, I should think, just because you were here before. You are simply one more of us. And to that point? I am Vira-Lorr. It is nice to meet you, miss.

[makesrocksfloat]

Oh. I'm sorry. That's...it's got to be tough. [she imagines what it might be like to be without Ben Kylo Ren and shivers in despair for a moment]

The Doorway. She's about...relationships?

[if so, she might be brave enough to tell Ben how she feels]

Okay. Okay. I don't want people to expect things of me I can't give.

And I'm Rey. Thank you for being kind, Vira-Lorr.

[onerthes]

I'm ok, promise. My life's been complicated, and it does hurt... but I've been starting to move on, knowing we may be apart and simply loving the time we had.

[She smiled fondly.]

Yes, the Doorway is about relationships and bonds, even the bad ones. She seems to bolster all chances for people to bind themselves both normally and magically.

That can be hard to figure out sometimes. My trainwreck of past relationships before I got married definitely tells a few stories. If there's someone who doesn't understand, perhaps try to talk to them and just tell them. It sounds so obvious, but it's amazing how many times I don't do that. And considering what you're going through today? What you're doing right now, opening communication? It's good.

[makesrocksfloat]

[guess who flushes brilliantly red at the notion of bonds and being bound to another?

this girl]

I, well. I wanted to know how many others knew the other me. And I feel sort of responsible for what they think.

[onerthes]

[She noticed the flush and chuckled softly to herself before nodding.]

A very understandable concern. In the end, though. You are the you who is here now, and that's the important part. You will be the only you that is this you, so embrace the singularity that is your person.

[Did that mean she dated two different Minakos? She wasn't going to dwell on that thought.]

[makesrocksfloat]

[kriff it. she's always worn her heart on her sleeve]

So...try to make people like me for me? Not other-me?

[onerthes]

Well, perhaps I would put it this way. Just be you, and let people get to know you as you, and try not to worry about the 'other you.' In the end, she's you. You just don't remember being her.

Trust me, it's awful. [She laughed darkly.] I once found out that years before I arrived, there'd been other sleepers in the nightmare. A group of my friends had been trapped there long before. I spent years chasing them. It was ... too much pain in the end. Just be yourself. You'll be fine.

[She didn't add that they'd actually been from a doomed timeline of her own world. That little tidbit wasn't important. Deerington could be so cruel with its revelations at times.]

[makesrocksfloat]

All of this is so strange, it makes my head spin. I want to be me and I want it to be enough.

...oh. I'm sorry. That had to have hurt. I know there are a lot of people from my galaxy here, but I'm a little nervous about approaching them. I don't know if they liked the other me better.

[she knows she's from in their perspectives the future and she doesn't know that to say or not to say]

[onerthes]

Galaxy... a lot? [Pause. No, that definitely told her a little. There were only so many Sleepers.] You are from the same reality as Obi-Wan and Maul, are you not? It is not important really. I simply do not hear the word "galaxy" used often like that.

And... it was a little painful, but they had peace in the end. However, knowing Obi-Wan, I suspect he would think as well of you as your other self. I doubt he'd see a difference.

In the end, you actually are you. And I am firmly of the view it is enough.

[makesrocksfloat]

Yes. Ones from my past, mostly. Some I know as their older versions, the others I...don't. I don't want to assume they're dead, seems a bit rude. And that would be it. I feel like I'm late to a party I didn't know anyone was throwing.

I'd like to hope so? That I wouldn't be that much different from the other me, no matter how much time passed.

I hope you're right.

[onerthes]

It can be hard to keep track sometimes, especially if enough time has passed between when you were drawn from and when someone else was. You're not truly late, but I can appreciate the feeling.

But, in the meantime, you may always feel free to give me a call, if you wish. I'm often around and available.