video: un; an.observer

[thisislife]

[Lexi looks dreamy and uncertain and a little sad, but she's trying to smile]

I, um. Has anyone else talked to people from home through one of those portal things and, uh, gotten spoilers for their own life? Because I have and it's weird? I'm glad for some of it, sad for some of it and I kinda need to talk this out. If that's okay?

[there's a long pause as Lexi looks off to the side, and arranges Orville so he's sitting on her shoulder, Orville immediately moving in to comfort Lexi by snuffling at her neck. she reaches up idly to pet him]

Also. I'd kinda like a roommate? I live in Gaze in a Lemon Cake house. My room's the one with blue and yellow wallpaper. [a long pause] I've never lived on my own before and I don't think I like it.

((OOC: there will be spoilers for Season 2 of Euphoria, event log to follow later on because the boss' wife is in today, woe!))

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private, text; un: Oracle

[adaine]

[She has Thoughts about the portals, and she does not trust them even remotely, but Lexi is clearly having a time and she's not going to smash a hammer into that with all her trauma based skepticism.]

I'm here if you want to talk, Lexi.

And um... I don't really have a house. I mostly live at the school or the orphanage. So, if it's okay with you, I can come stay for a bit?

private (CW: drug addiction, toxic relationships)

[thisislife]

Really? Oh, thank you, thank you, thank you.

And you absolutely can stay for as long as you want! I have two free bedrooms, one with a twin bed and one with a queen. And I like to cook, so no worries there!

As for what I found out...It wasn't all bad. My best friend, Rue? She looked and sounded like she was doing good. Like she was staying clean because SHE wanted to, not because she wanted to for someone else.

But my sister, Cassie? That was ALL bad. She's furious with me, blames me for her toxic piece of shit boyfriend dumping her, and refuses to let me back into our shared room. So I'm apparently couch-surfing back home with mom getting my clothes for me out of the room.

[adaine]

I've never slept in a queen sized bed...

I can also cook sometimes, but I'll only take over when you want me to if it's something you enjoy doing! [Her cooking involves magic. Lots of healthy ingredients that taste like whatever you want them to.

Her response to Lexi's other concerns takes a while for her to type, mostly because she's stuck between wanting to believe that life continued on with her in it and cynically dismissing these as yet more illusions.

Maybe she doesn't have to dismiss them. She glances out the window at her omni, itself only an illusion born of her fears.]

Huh.

Well... honestly breaking up with her toxic boyfriend sounds like a positive in the long run. It sounds like she's just... scrambling for someone to blame her problems on. And that's just... unbelievably toxic, you know? So it's just a matter of her figuring out her own problems.

Only she can stop fucking up her life. It sucks that she kicked you out but you're smart enough that you'll probably figure something out, and you, or well, future/alternate you won't be stuck catching shrapnel while she figures her shit out.

I can come over if you want to talk about this in person? I don't really have a lot to bring.

(CW: drug abuse/addiction, dysfunctional family)

[thisislife]

I'd only shared one on family vacations and Cassie kicks. Having one to myself is weird, so I kind of wind up starfishing myself on the bed.

No it's okay, I'm used to cooking! [the Howard family would eat only Chinese delivery or everything stews if it wasn't for Lexi.

and Lexi often figures that if all else fails, it'll be great in the memoirs. everybody loved a socially awkward overachiever, right? Oprah would totally feature that book, wouldn't she?]

I guess. Cassie's always based herself on how guys see her, starting with our dad. And he wound up really not being someone to base yourself on considering that he robbed our house for drug money after getting addicted to heroin. But that's a long story. Every guy Cassie has ever dated, she's fallen for. I'd always know when it went bad because either she'd lock me out of our room and cry on her phone for hours or she'd go to the backyard where no one could hear her and cry. I honestly think she needs help, like professional help. She's not listening to me and I doubt she's listening to mom. So it is a pretty toxic environment.

I hope I can. Some of what she had to say was pretty stunning in a really, REALLY bad way. 'Cause the most recent guy she based herself on and went crazy over was her best friend's boyfriend. At least according to Cassie of the likely future, which boggles my mind because ever since we were all little kids, he'd pick on her for being dumb and for our family being trashy compared to his.

You can? That would be great. I'm at [insert directions here] in Gaze. I really appreciate this.

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[adaine]

Yikes. That's... a lot. I can't really say I have much experience with any of that kind of thing. Well, my dad also sucks. That much I can relate to.

I'll come over and make you hot cocoa. That's what my foster father did for me whenever I was sad.

[And about five minutes later, she arrives.]