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[Ariadne hasn't been able to show her face on the network--or in person, really--since her meltdown in July. But she's starting to come back, as it were. Only on voice because she can't quite bring herself to share all of her feelings.

Feelings that are very strong right now.]

I don't believe in revenge. It's a messy business that doesn't ultimately fix anything. You can't always undo a wrong.

You can, however, be better.

I say this for two reasons now. The first is that I urge all of you not to take revenge against the user who goes by the name "NoMercy" on the Omni network. I don't know who they are and I don't know how they've suffered. But hurting them isn't going to un-murder Ezra or Oscar or any of the others.

The second reason why I'm talking about revenge is that...I need to know what happened to Dean Winchester. I need to know who burned down his house, who killed him. And...I want to reassure you--anyone who's listening--that if you know something or if you were, in some way, responsible...I'm not going to hurt you.

I...I don't believe in revenge.

And that's...that's all, I guess.

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[ Honestly, the less Chizuru thinks about that other post on the network, the better. Maybe it's why she's opting to ignore the first part of what Ariadne is saying here, instead focusing on the second half. ]

Um..

[ Her voice is soft. Gentle. ]

Please, forgive me if this is an intrusive question. [ Chizuru is always polite, after all. Even with how tense things have seemed here lately. ] But if you aren't going to hurt them, then.. why do you want to know who killed your friend..?

[ She assumes this Dean Winchester is Ariadne's friend, after all. Why else would she be asking about it? ]

[It's a valid question.

Ariadne inhales slowly before she replies, the words coming out haltingly.]

I guess because...I need to know why. That's the important part. I want to know why he died.

.. yes. I guess that makes sense.. [ Her voice is still soft, but Chizuru seems to agree. She nods a little bit to herself as she's saying it.

After all, who wouldn't want to know why if something that upsetting happened? Even when you don't want to take revenge, sometimes it's a little bit much to live without answers, or details. ]

It seems though that.. sometimes the reason behind death in this place might be a little bit cruel. [ Especially if that recent network post was anything to go by. ] Don't you think it might hurt you more then..?

[ Chizuru sounds a touch concerned as she says that.

It's not even like she knows this woman, but she'd hate to see anyone unnecessarily hurt. ]

This place is cruel. But it's also kind. I can't...I don't think I can justify blaming a place yet.

[Even if it might very well be alive, as Deerington was.]

Especially not when there are people here who didn't like Dean.

One of them could have been responsible.

[ The words make her pause for a moment as she tries to figure out what to say here - or how to put what she wanted to say in different words. ]

But their reasons for doing so.. could also be cruel, right?

[ Sure, maybe they were trying to do good. Maybe Dean was turning into a beast, and they tried to prevent him from hurting someone. Maybe there was another good reason.

But if there really are people here who don't like Dean, as she says, then there's quite a chance the reason could actually be quite cruel. ]

I understand wanting to know, but.. if I knew someone important to me had been brought to an end cruelly like that, I know I'd be really sad.

I was...am sad. I just...I can't let sadness be the end of it. Sadness doesn't do anything, it doesn't help me or anyone else.

[She sighs, frustrated with herself.]

I wish I could explain it better. I speak thirty-six languages but sometimes, there just aren't words.

[ .. thirty-six?!

Okay, hold on, Chizuru. This so is not the time to get too surprised over that, even though that is an utterly wild amount to a girl who has only ever spoken one language.. And has never ever heard anyone speak any other back where she comes from.. Where would anyone even learn that many languages?

Maybe she can ask Ariadne some other time, she thinks. When the other isn't dealing with so much. It means that for now the surprise does show up on Chizuru's face, since the girl wears all her emotions on her sleeve, but she's careful to reply while talking about something else. ]

N-No, it's alright..! I think I understand, sometimes feelings are just too hard to put into words.. That's what they're feelings for, after all.

[ The last thing she wants Ariadne to feel right now is bad for not being able to word it very well. ]

I'm just saying all this because I feel so bad for you.. You must be having such a hard time right now.

That is...

[She pauses a moment.]

True. I am...having a hard time right now.

[And the tiniest hint of a smile slowly creeps into her voice.]

I thank you for that. It's very kind of you. But please don't feel bad on my account.

[ She lets out a faint sound - it almost sounds like a giggle, but a little bit more awkward, or even wry at its very edges. ]

It's okay. [ I'm afraid it's already too late for that, she means, but doesn't want to say it so directly. Chizuru knows she can't help it. She always feels bad for other people in positions like these, and that's never their fault. ]

It's just.. [ For a moment her voice trails off, but then she adds: ] I guess you can see it as confirmation that your feelings are valid, you know..?

[ In case Ariadne needs that. Chizuru isn't sure. Not everyone is as constantly fussy and worried about that stuff as she herself is. ]

Has your friend already come back..? [ She's never too sure how long it takes for the dead to return in this place. Chizuru figures not, if the other is asking who killed him, but still.. ]

[Ariadne shakes her head. It's almost imperceptible. Mostly because all of her energy needs to go to keeping her expression neutral. Even serene.

Although her insides are roiling.]

He hasn't come back.

[And he isn't going to. She doesn't know how she knows it. She just...knows it. Somehow.]

I'm sorry..

[ Maybe it's just not really been a while yet since he died, she thinks. Honestly.. she isn't too sure how long it takes for people to come back to life here, but it never seems to take that long, right?

Still, every day you're separated from someone you care for is a day that hurts. ]

Do you maybe need people to keep an eye out for him, in case you don't realise it right away when he's back..? I don't know him, but if you describe him to me, I can definitely keep an eye out while I'm going around town..! [ Maybe that's the only thing she can do here to help. ]

[What's the harm? As much as it hurts, is also comforts her a little to talk about Dean.]

About six feet tall. White skin, green eyes. Dark hair that's cut awfully close.

[Not at all to her liking, but she's got a bit of a bias when it comes to hair.]

Perfectly and completely Human.

[ Chizuru hums a little as Ariadne describes the other. ]

I think that should be recognizable enough.. [ .. sure, there might be others here who fit that description, but Chizuru likes to think they hopefully won't be offended if she asks them whether they're Dean or not if she spots them. Especially since everyone seems a little bit less high strung right now..

Maybe she'll be able to help Ariadne find her friend again. ]

If I find him, I'll let you know for sure. In the meantime.. please stay strong, even though I know things must be difficult for you right now.. [ There's sympathy in her voice as she says it. ]

Thank you.

[A pause. In light of what happened with Chara, she can't help but add:]

Please know how much I appreciate your kindness.

Ah.. It's really okay, miss..! I'm just doing what anyone would do!

[ .. okay, maybe not anyone would do that. Chizuru is aware that some people in any world are.. not so nice. But she likes to think that this kindness she's showing the other ought to be the baseline for anyone, even if some people ignore it. ]

Though.. if it's okay, can I maybe have your name? Then I'll know who to reach if I spot him somewhere or hear something about him..

[The idea that it's what anyone would do gives her great comfort. Again, mostly in light of Chara.]

Airy.

No. Um...Ariadne. But no one calls me that. So, it's just "Airy," I guess.

Miss Airy!

[ It's a bit of an odd name to Chizuru, but.. then again, most names here are, considering she's never travelled outside of Japan back home.. ]

Is there a reason no one calls you by your name..? [ Hey, if people are calling her Airy and Ariadne prefers her actual name, then Chizuru sure doesn't mind sticking with the latter. Hence why she wants to make sure here by asking. ]

Oh, no "miss." Airy is fine.

And...I don't know why people prefer to call me that. I guess...I just sort of earned the name. I don't mind.

[ Uh oh. Even though many people have told her the same thing as the other is telling her now, Chizuru always has trouble with dropping formality that easily.. It's probably why she's going quiet over here for a moment.

At least she can avoid the matter until she has to call out to the other some other time or something..

For now, she instead asks-- ]

Which do you prefer then..?

[ There's a difference between not minding something and liking something better, after all! Chizuru sure thinks so. ]

[This time, Ariadne goes quiet.]

You know, no one's ever asked me that before.

I think...I think I prefer "Airy." It's just...me. You know?

No one..?

[ She sounds a little surprised as she asks that short question. After all, Chizuru can't imagine that no one ever asked Ariadne as to her own preferences before. Isn't that sort of thing important..?

.. then again, always believing in the best of people, Chizuru figures that maybe it's just that they assumed whatever she told them was her preference. It feels like the kindest assumption here. ]

Well.. Then I'll call you that. [ That's an easy call to make, at least. ] I.. um, think I might have a hard time letting the 'miss' go at first...

[ It's just Chizuru's own issues with formality. She feels awkward being informal so quickly! ]

B-But I'll at least call you 'miss Airy'! And then I'll try to work on it from there..! [ Yes, she actually has to work on just refering someone by their name and nothing else. But at least Chizuru does sound like she's willing to make some genuine effort here. ]

[She laughs softly.]

I understand.

Where I come from, you call everyone "Lady This" or "Lord That" or else you just bow your head politely and try to be invisible.

It's been an adjustment.

[ Oh.

Wow.

That hits home a little bit more than Chizuru expected, leaving her quiet for a split second to try and adjust to said surprise. ]

Ah.. right. Where I come from, we always bow for other people too, and we always make sure to address people by their title.. [ Though Chizuru doesn't really view it as something annoying, or even bad. She likes showing people proper respect.

The whole 'trying to be invisible' thing is more of a personal thing, really. ]

People here really don't do that very often, huh..? [ Not in Chizuru's experience, anyway. ]

No, not really.

[There's a bit of a smile in her voice.]

All the social rules I ever learned are gone. It must be hard for you too, huh?

Yes.. It has been a lot to adjust to.

[ In fact, she's pretty sure she still hasn't fully adjusted yet. There's times where she still falls back into old habits, and giving up complete formality with people like a lot of people ask her has been hard.. ]

But I guess that's what happens when you bring a lot of people together who all come from very different places, huh..? There might be things some of them have in common, but there's always going to be a few that are different. It makes me a little awkward, since I worry people might get mad at me for treating them too formally.. [ Which might seem like a paradox, but..

Look, some people insist on just calling them by name so much that Chizuru feels rude for being unable to snap out of her habit. Hence why she looks a little sad as she's talking about all of this. But at least she is talking about it in the first place, since it seems like the other might be able to understand it a little. ]

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