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[possessum]

( This is not Peter Graham, though of course, posting anonymously takes away that possibility. The user didn't want to use the boy's network handle, to inevitably be seen through the filter of "Not Peter."

The user is trying to define his own identity. )

why did you choose your title here on this THING
what is the meaning
?
?

( ...Texting is still something he struggles with, though the demon has been watching and learning and forming his own conclusions on how to do it. Autocorrect is a life-saver. Two questions get two question marks. ....Even if they go in the wrong place. )

i will grant you a
GOLDEN COIN
if you
RESPOND

( ...For those who know Paimon fairly well, that particular offer of exchange might betray who he is. But the demon of Knowledge is curious to hear reasons, and within them: perhaps stories, memories, self-perceptions. There is a meaning to everything, whether simple or complex.

And perhaps by the end of it, he will know what title he would give himself, here on the network. )

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[hauntedsavior]

[this shouldn't feel as new as it does. but the thing that makes it different from what she's heard for the past several years is that this time, it's coming from the other direction. she can fantasize as much as she wants that A2 can hear her, that A2 is listening and that they can have conversations, but they'll never be as clear as what's happening right now.]

[all of that is to say it takes a moment for her to even process the last part of it. she wants to say so much. she wants to say so much, but she can't in good conscience treat A2 like that. what she types is something different.]

Ask your vessel if he remembers a girl in a maid outfit at a party.
If you'd like. If you're going to share any of this conversation with him.
If you don't want to, that's fine, too.

[and because she doesn't just want to leave him hanging when he's been so polite:]

It isn't easy, forcing myself to live for two people. Even now that I've had time to get used to it.
For all the good A2 has done for me, and she's done so much, don't get me wrong...
It's a lot. It's been a lot of work. And it's been a lot of work that I haven't always been willing to put in.
Your vessel has that same road ahead of him, and maybe I'm just talking for myself here.
But looking at the person I was before A2 came into my life, I think it's worth the effort.

You're part of him.
And he can ignore you, or he can fight you, or he can accept you, but only one of those choices is going to make his heartbeat calm down in the middle of another sleepless night.

[possessum]

( A girl in a maid outfit — Paimon doesn't ask questions, doesn't probe further. Clearly it is something meant for his vessel, and the person he is speaking to deserves his respect. He will honour the request (she says it's his choice and that's still such a rare thing for something like him to have). Yes, he will honour this for her. )

i will ask him
there are ways to speak with him that i think will not frighten him so much

( He can draw pictures for Peter.... Doodle a girl in a maid uniform, put some question marks around it... Or, perhaps, he'll try speaking with the boy in dreams. Padded by the haze of sleep, Peter might be more susceptible to conversation. He gets so frightened by the demon in the waking world every time he feels him shudder beneath his skin.

Unfortunately, unbeknownst to Paimon, this place will soon wrap Peter up in a literal cocoon — bringing both of them back to Peter's homeworld and to the events that transpired there. It will leave them both... strange, for awhile after. Aching and strange.

But Paimon won't forget. Over the next months as winter becomes colder and he regains himself, he'll remember this conversation. He'll make sure to fulfill this person's request. They are certainly someone he wishes to keep connection with, and the words.. affect the demon, deeply. It's looking at an outcome, a road to follow. This person is representative of that, no matter the differences; it's the sameness that feels like a thread to grasp onto in the midst of so much uncertainty. He wishes Peter could see that, too. Perhaps someday, perhaps with this person's help? He could. Perhaps one day he can accept. )

thank you
i am grateful i have met you
i wish to speak with you again
and
i will find you again

i desire for him to become
like you