Video | UN: aweful

[necroprince]

[She’s been here for over a week now. Time to get the lay of the land. The video opens up to a particularly tall blonde woman with a golden skeletal arm and a smirk. She's here to cause problems on purpose.]

Greetings, hello, salutations. My name is Ianthe Naberius. I’m new in town, twenty two, a princess of Ida, unfortunately single and dreadfully bored!

Now, I come to you today, not only to introduce myself, but to ask something of all of you.

Who do you hate most in Trench and why? I’m trying to meet people, network, but it’s so hard and overwhelmingly positive! So consider this an open invitation. Warn me about that dangerous scoundrel who kicked your puppy, seethe about how much you despise me for whatever reason, tell me about your parasocial hateful fixation on one of the local divinity. It can be a minor slight you want to complain about, a friend of yours who owes you two perfectly intact human skulls, or it can be an actual danger to this lovely little community of ours.

Now, before you try to say “this is childish and stupid!” You’re absolutely right, but it is a necessary part of self care to allow oneself to be an absolute cunt once in a while. [Or all the time, if your name is Ianthe.] So let’s not make any grand claims to being above something like this, mm?

Feel free to use the anonymity feature. Or the privacy feature, I guess, if you’re shy or worried about being fileted like a fish.

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[survivalthroughhate]

[It was out of respect for Duty Maul gave him an honest answer instead of evasion.]

I don't know. Every time I think I do, something in the equation changes.

[martyrofduty]

That's okay. Life isn't static. How about, for right now?

Private
We can take this private.

Private Text; un: darkness

[survivalthroughhate]

[Maul was grateful Duty took the conversation to private, for this was getting personal fast.]

I'm trying not to fight so hard for everything. But that's difficult in a place where fighting can mean survival.

Private Text; un: duty

[martyrofduty]

I'm used to fighting. With community, however, cooperation beats fighting for survival. Rather, fighting for the communal good does.

'course it takes some trust.

[survivalthroughhate]

Half the community hates me and thinks I'm an unrepentant monster. There's not much incentive there for me to want to work with them.

And I barely trust friends I've known here for YEARS, let alone people that dislike me.

[martyrofduty]

The reality is you and them are both here, but you can start with the other half.

Trust has levels. You've earned some of mine working together. Less than someone I've known for years, yes. It's still trust.

[survivalthroughhate]

In my experience, when you give people your trust, they use that to manipulate and take advantage of you.

[martyrofduty]

Lack of trust can be manipulated. It's only a different approach.

[survivalthroughhate]

At least I don't get disappointed and hurt if I don't bother to trust people at all.

[martyrofduty]

At a price.

Why do you fear connection?

[survivalthroughhate]

Because anyone I've ever had a connection with has left me. Whether willingly or unwillingly, I am left alone again, and being left with what once was HURTS. It hurts too much to ever want to do that again.

[martyrofduty]

I'm familiar. I do it again anyway.

[survivalthroughhate]

Then I suppose that makes you stronger than me in a way. I don't like feeling that way time and again.

[martyrofduty]

Has anyone you've lost been worth the pain?

[survivalthroughhate]

My family would always be worth it. But all of them died in my own galaxy. I'm still dealing with that grief.

[martyrofduty]

Mood. I've lost everyone, one way or another. I'd do it again for any of them.

I say the same for some in Trench.

[survivalthroughhate]

At least here death doesn't hurt nearly as bad.....most of the time anyway.

[martyrofduty]

How so?

[survivalthroughhate]

They come back. But that isn't always a guarantee either. So it the pain is still there regardless of what happens.

[martyrofduty]

Nothing is ever guaranteed. When they do, it is practice with the pain. So you can be more ready for the worst days of your life.

[survivalthroughhate]

I've already experienced many of the worst days of my life. Nothing can prepare one for the pain they will face at that time.

[martyrofduty]

I know.