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[onerthes]

[Vira-Lorr was in the Luminarium, getting the last transfusions to deal with her little ... problem, thanks to Riteior. It was, as always, something of a process. But the fact that it was one of the attendants that she knew through Albert was what prompted this message. She knew that he kept to himself mostly, but given his tendency to remain in the background and out of the limelight, she did want to make sure that those who knew him would be aware in advance.]

For those who have not been made aware, and were receiving treatment from Dr Adrian Winters, formerly known as Albert Wesker, he has returned to the ocean. I know that he was of assistance to a few of us through the Luminarium, and one of my research partners. So, it seemed best to make sure that you were made aware.

I don't think that he would want a great deal of fuss made in his departure. He was a curious man in his way. But, all the same, I will miss his perspective.

To those who were at all concerned? I believe I have compiled his notes and mine on the Antidote experiments, and should be able to proceed with a refined mix next month. Also, are any of you members of the Blood Ministers? I find myself in need of a physician who I can trust and, while I appreciate the people of Trench, I still have some lingering paranoia.

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[onerthes]

If you can remember as you did? He cared for you. He was never the sort to let someone close that he did not care for. It's one thing about him that was special. You knew that he valued you if you spent that much time with him.

No, you really aren't. Part of this is the knowledge of the pain of loss. We share it. You're well within your rights to feel it and express it.

[unphase]

I hope you're right. That he cared for me as I did for him. When the Tyrant was here---we had each other's backs. I always meant to thank him in a more personal sort of way for his back-up. And he's been here longer than I have been. It will be strange to think of Trench without him.

I hope you're right. The other world--people came and went so frequently that it usually seemed to not to matter if an individual left.

Here, it does. I hope that's something of an improvement. A sense of family, community. Things I was in desperate search of in the other world and never achieved.

[onerthes]

It will, and perhaps you will have the chance to see him again. For now, though, we will hold the memories close, will we not?

Yes. In this world, the loss of one soul carries with it a pain that some worlds seem not to have. It's not the most pleasant of things, but I think that it's a good part, that we care for each other that way.

[unphase]

I hope so. I hope that I get to tell him and I hope that he remembers me. Some experiences are above what the Pthumerians can influence. At least I hope so.

It's ridiculous to love the way I do. I don't see any end to love.
That the more I have to give, the more I receive.
Most people I know would say that I can only love one person and one person alone and that if I felt more for someone else, it would be a pale comparison.

But it's not.
I know it's not.

[onerthes]

Aa good hope, and I will choose to share it with you. I would like for him to be able to grow close to you. Especially if you feel that with him.

How long have you felt this way?

[unphase]

I do feel that way with him. Even if he didn't feel the same.

I don't know. Almost as soon as I arrived. He made me feel safe and welcome and I wanted to be around him.

[onerthes]

Ah, now that pain is one I understand. I could see it for him. He is a special and unique soul. He could definitely produce quite the feel of safety and security with how unflappable he could be.

[unphase]

Yes, exactly. Even when the odds were against us, he didn't show any fear. I admired that. The ability to maintain calm even when up against such a terrible situation.

[onerthes]

In truth? I don't know if he was capable of expressing fear in the way that most of us were. It had been somewhat bred out of him. An admirable quality because it did not make him foolish at the same time. That calm demeanor was very valuable at times.

[unphase]

It was. This is going to be rough, one of those situations where I keep thinking I'll see him again for a long time.

[onerthes]

I imagine that yes. That sort of back and forth, the feeling that he's still here, will be something that we both deal with from time to time.

That never really gets easier. Just less frequent.

[unphase]

I guess so. It's strange, I don't think I'll ever get used to people leaving. I never did in the other world.

[onerthes]

What happened in the other world? Did they stay indefinitely?

(CW: Duplicity, poor bdsm etiquette)

[unphase]

...No. It's just that where I was from? There was little room for mistakes. Not unless you wanted to gain the attention of the SIN Guards. And their attention was some sort of twisted bdsm they had in mind as the truth.

[onerthes]

Ah, and that sort of thing might very well have qualified as a sort of mistake. People spent their whole lives going out of their way not to step out of line, for fear of the reprisal that might come, yes?

[unphase]

Exactly. And every time I think I'm over it, that it can't get to me anymore, something happens and my mind is sent back there, not knowing how to get out again. And I get so...angry.

[onerthes]

Those wounds do not heal naturally. It takes time, and sometimes it takes a very large amount of time. I can only hope that you are able to find peace with time.

[unphase]

I hope so, too. I don't want that place to ruin my chances at this one. As...strange as it is, I'd far rather be here than there.

[onerthes]

To that end, always remember that the worst this world can throw, no matter how it seems otherwise? It is but temporary. It will never last forever.

[unphase]

Nothing ever does. The good or the bad.

[onerthes]

True enough. Ah well, today we shall focus on the bad being temporary, yes? That is much better for the mood.

[unphase]

I'll try.