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[lightthedarkness]

[Usually, Usagi would just make this a text, but this was for Rei.

She took a deep breath as she looks at the camera, her eyes red and swollen, her nose red as well. She offers a wet smile before it falls away completely.

She takes another deep breath.]

For those of you who knew her, Rei Hino went- went home.

[Her breath hitches on that last part but she gets it out without a single sob or tears. Rei would be proud. She's done her crying, though, in truth, she's likely to do more later. Usagi knows she'll see Rei again, their lives intertwined, but it doesn't make her loss hurt any less.

Usagi debates for a moment if she should say anything else, pressing her lips together, and then lets out a breath.]

I know she meant a lot to many of you and those of you who Rei loved, she loved you fiercely, I can say that with certainty. [Rei never loved by halves.

Usagi is silent for a moment and then nods. She leaves it at that, at a loss on what else to say.]

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[imaglyphwitch]

[In the back of her mind, Luz knows that she's out of her depth. How could she not be? Usagi was older than herm had been here longer, had friends that were helping her literally fight against evil, and now one of them was gone. On top of that, Luz had only started to understand exactly the kinds of things Usagi was dealing with, to see some of the anxieties that were cropping up and then she goes and loses someone close to her.

It was the worst. It was a low, sad feeling that just never went away no matter what you did, and Luz knew that. Every day when she woke up, she remembered what it was like waking up curled up over her sister Margot and her fur feeling safe, and now that was something she'd never get back, and no one even remembered her. How could Usagi come to terms with that, knowing how much she meant to her?

But the worst thing was that Luz knew she couldn't come up with words to try and ease Usagi's pain. Part of her wished she could DO that, that she could help, that she could magically come up with the right things to say. The thing was, she couldn't. She had to come to terms with the fact that nothing she said was going to reach Usagi. She was older, she'd seen more, and likely, there were people closer than her who knew what she needed better than she did.

And in Usagi's stance, drawing up her body, Luz could see that now. For a moment, there was a soft, sad look the girl had on her face, but that was all. Luz understood, at least, that Usagi needed to be away, to feel her feelings without her here. She swallowed and got up].

Well. I'll get out of your hair though. You probably don't want to entertain people right now, and you need time to miss her. So. If you need anything, just ask. I just wanted to make sure you were OK. I know I'm not...always great at this, but I wanted you to know that I see your pain. That it matters. That I'd try and shoulder some of it, you know?

[But that was impossible. She was Sailor Moon. NO ONE shouldered what she did. Luz had gotten peaks into other people's lives, and understood that each of them were part of their own specific universe, and even when they brought them here, there was an understanding that some things could be shared, and some couldn't].

Take care, Usagi-chan.

[And with a slight hesitation, she reaches over and hugs the girl, as warmly as she could, because it hurt to see her in pain, she wondered why she wasn't better at helping to ease people's troubles if she had to have this blood magic].

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[lightthedarkness]

[She pauses, for a moment, and hugs Luz back, letting out a soft breath. It's not that she doesn't appreciate Luz attempting to help her, but she... she can't open up the way Luz wants her to, not to her. Luz is too young, Luz may have seen some things, but they've never really properly talked about it afterwards. Luz is... so young in Usagi's eyes. Yes, she's faced what Deerington has thrown at her, but she WANTS Luz to be a teenager, to enjoy what she can when she can. She isn't going to lay down her load at Luz's feet. She knew, personally what it meant to grow up too fast, to have burdens you weren't ready for laid down across your shoulders.

She holds Luz a little longer, staring off into nothing and lets out a breath.]

You too, Luz-chan. [She whispers, hoarse, barely holding on to her strength for this to send Luz on her way without having to find out how deep Usagi's pain goes.]

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[imaglyphwitch]

[Luz would remember this.

It hadn't become apparent to her, but there was a reason that Doorway was her Pthumerian. Relationships with her friends, with her family, they meant a lot to her, and that was apparent when good things happen and similarly when bad things did too. If there was one thing that hurt Luz to her core, it was seeing her friends in pain. She did everything in her power to stop it, even if it meant making herself uncomfortable. So seeing Usagi like this and not being able to help was something that hurt her, because she could see that pain so clearly in the girl's eyes.

But Luz knew she didn't have the power to help. It was a painful thing to acknowledge, but in the end she cared about what Usagi wanted, and she wanted to grieve right now. Sometimes being alone and crying was the only balm that would help. After all, how would Luz had felt if her friends had barged in on her right as she'd gotten home from losing Eda? She'd have been a wreck.

Luz took a breath, then put a hand on her shoulder].

I...I'll see you later, Usagi-chan. Wherever she is, I'm sure that you'll see her again. If you need me, just find me. I'll be around.