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[forwantofahorse]

so, um

this might be an odd question! and i feel immensely stupid for asking it

hence why this isn't attached to my regular account

but for anyone else who had their gender swapped or. otherwise changed??? during the skin shedding ceremony are you all still thinking about it or is that just me?????

i feel like such an idiot for even posting this, ugh

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[foulhussy]

no

that can happen?

wtf

[forwantofahorse]

SURE HAPPENED TO ME LAST WEEK

it was quite a disorienting experience. i was, er, literally an entirely different person, so it shouldn't be sticking with me as much, but i can't get it out of my mind

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[justoscar]

No, but this kinda thing happened to me last winter, too.

I realized that I'm just Me, no matter what the world says about my gender. Boy or girl, who I am doesn't change.

Besides, it's kinda fun dressing up in fancy outfits like that every once in a while.

[forwantofahorse]

ha. i wish i could just let it go like that. but identity isn't that simple for everyone.

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[the_obedient_servant]

Being constrained by either binary gender feels like a nightmare to me, so I can't say I entirely relate, but it's fine to question your own gender identity and make changes. I'd imagine it's easier here, actually.

[forwantofahorse]

wait, either "binary gender"—there are more than just two?!?

[Sayo had just been trying to be painstakingly polite when they met Chara and Frisk because she couldn't figure out which gender they were, and while Lion had muddied the waters slightly she still didn't quite... get it with them.]

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[ghostharasser]

[JUST GONNA use a different username than normal. Totally anon, no one will catch him surely.]

Yeah. Um. Its not the first time I’ve had a body with the opposite gender- I got bodyswapped with a family member once like …two years ago.

This time it was the opposite gender but it was still me? And I dunno, it definitely gave me a lot to think about. There was stuff I thought I was sure about and now …I’m not so sure.

would dipper have told lion his name?

[forwantofahorse]

dear lord, that would be a nightmare

[Especially for Sayo.]

i've been having these weird thoughts... for a long time now, i suppose. found ways to ignore them so i could keep working, but

this last week made it... really hard to do that. i mean, i wasn't there, but he. they? were, and...

it felt good, you know. or i remember it feeling good. they spent so much time trying to find ways to make me happy once they vanished, but when they finally had fun for themself

getting up onstage and singing silly karaoke without a care in the world while they didn't bother with any pretense, it

i don't know how to describe that feeling, really

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[unsheathedfromreality]

Yes. I still miss being that tall.

Why do you feel like an idiot?

[forwantofahorse]

because it feels like there's this whole new plane of existence that was right in front of me this whole time has finally revealed itself to me and if i hadn't been an idiot and ignored it i likely could've forestalled so many problems in my life

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[feudalladyshandmaid]

This skin shedding ceremony can really do... just about anything, can't it?

[forwantofahorse]

apparently so

a few of my friends just got a few years younger

some just got their gender changed

i personally changed into someone who through some kind of miracle lived an entirely different life

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[albaedo]

[ — because it's easier to multitask this way. albedo starts off with a thoughtful hum, like he's seriously considering her question, then: ]

I did not realize idiocy and stupidity are synonymous with curiosity and taking that initiative to learn something new, evidently dispelling ignorance. Should I keep this in mind for future reference?

[ he's not serious, however deadpan the delivery, nor does he say it with the intent to mock. moving on though: ]

... But I see. Memories are retained regardless of what has previously occurred... I have personally not underwent that level of change, though I wonder if I have encountered someone who has alluded to such.

[forwantofahorse]

[It's him. Sayo blushes like a tomato when she recalls the dance Albedo and Lion shared their final night, the feeling of hand in gloved hand fresh in her memory-

No, no, no! Focus. She keeps texting for now.]

er

well it's not for everyone

my friend doesn't remember anything at all about the past week other than a few vague impressions, while everything my "other self" experienced is practically burned into my brain

like it or not

as far as idiocy goes, i'd more argue i'm an idiot for never realizing any of... this

it never seemed like an option where i was from

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[hopticulture]

Well...I'm still different so I guess I'm still thinking about it. It's not my gender that's changed, though.

[forwantofahorse]

that isn't really what this post is about, but... color me curious, what DID?

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[arclightning]

You're not an idiot. It's weird. When I was swapped, I was convinced I had this whole other life where I'd been this way the whole time.

What part are you still thinking about?

[forwantofahorse]

the EVERYTHING!

i don't know. i've just... never felt as content with myself, my own body, the way that they did

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[givehead]

I am assuming you were raised in a strict gender binary society which can cause unnecessarily complex feelings about gender that most people do not get the opportunity to explore.

It is not your fault that you did not have the chance to understand that part of yourself until now. Nothing stupid there.

What part are you thinking about exactly?

[forwantofahorse]

oh, is this what we're doing now?

[Let her be a dipshit about this, Dirk.]

but yes, you have the right of it. even though my other self lived a... vastly, vastly different life from me, they still struggled with similar emotions, but they somehow managed to... find a gender, i suppose? that made them happy anyways

but we're different enough that i don't think it'll be the exact same solution for me

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[grandtheftperson]

I hadn't been gender swapped, but I experienced other things. I'm not entirely sure I'm back to normal, I now have spots.

They glow in the dark.

[forwantofahorse]

good for you i guess??? congratulations on not getting an existential crisis with all this bullshit

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[onekindsoul]

Not really?
I mean being a kid was fun and all.
And I'd do it again but I'm not in a rush either.

Either way there's nothing wrong with thinking about stuff. Live your best life.

[forwantofahorse]

thank you for your input, miss rose. i'm sure getting to go on adorable kiddy adventures with your girlfriend was just as stressful and life-altering as changing into an entirely different person who you nonetheless could've been. it's obvious that you have important insights to contribute.

[Does Sayo have to get on top of a soapbox and bang pots and pans to some of these people to get it into their thick skulls that this post wasn't for them?]

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[survivalthroughhate]

Being another species right now-- [That's right, Maul's still stuck as a human being even if he's going to be tight-lipped as to precisely what species he's been turned into.] --is amusing but I don't think I'll want it to become a permanent change. I prefer being my own self for a variety of reasons.

[Maul will be very upset if he loses the Nightbrother tattooing that covers his entire body given how important that is culturally to him.]

[forwantofahorse]

glad you have self-confidence but this post is about how the fact that i was inherently the same person on every level but also extremely different is fucking me up