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Guess my hunter license carries over to this place too, huh? But it seems way more fun to be a hunter of hunters so consider this my formal personal advert:
my name's Killua Zoldyck & i'm now accepting hits. Just shoot me a pic and I'll take care of it. and don't worry about the difficulty. i'm a professional.
if you need protection, i can offer that too if you really want.
i accept chocolate as a form of payment 🗡⊂(ʘ‿ʘ✿)
my name's Killua Zoldyck & i'm now accepting hits. Just shoot me a pic and I'll take care of it. and don't worry about the difficulty. i'm a professional.
if you need protection, i can offer that too if you really want.
i accept chocolate as a form of payment 🗡⊂(ʘ‿ʘ✿)
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do assassins not exist in your world? i bet they do
(It's okay. Killua's never been one for decorum anyway.)
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they're just better at it
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it's like a child playing dress up
except worse because who jokes about something like this
it's really just in poor taste
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but just because you think it's a "joke" doesn't mean it is. you're the one coming off as childish by not believing something just because it's not how YOU experience it personally
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that seems defensive.
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plus, i'm like fifteen. i feel like i can be childish if i want to be
anyway, it's not being defensive. it's being annoyed
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actually, that would make it even more childish, and entirely inexcusable.
the worst.
there's an immeasurable weight to the value of a person's life, whether they're good or horrible. anything that requires taking it, for whatever reason, has to at least treat it properly. that there was a person there, with hopes and dreams and fears. that their death will have consequences, and that people will be left sad.
that there's grief left behind, even by people that are disliked.
it shouldn't even be a decision that's taken at all, unless if there's absolutely no other way in order to save someone else or yourself.
if you're going to be a despicable sort of person like that who takes lives for money, at least have some respect about it. it's shameful to talk about it so callously whether you're being serious or just trying to get a rise out of people.
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I'm not interested in trying to present murder as something more than what it is. It's death and I'm good at that. I'm not even going to sit here and tell you that you're wrong. I'm aware death has weight. that's why people pay people a lot of money to assassinate people.
they don't want to get their hands dirty, but people like me, we don't mind. once you have red on your hands, that's not a color you ever scrub off, so why bother acting like you can ever absolve yourself of that down the line?
i've seen death hundreds of times. i'm aware of what it means to kill someone. i'm just telling you that i don't have that many feelings about it. people die all the time. and in my world, it's not that uncommon to act this way about death. sure, it can be sad, but there are a lot worse things than death.
i'm not interested in saving people. and I'm not trying to get a rise out of people, but if people want to be sensitive about it, then I can't stop that either
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either you're lying to try to make yourself seem justified, or you're trying to convince yourself of that.
it's delusional.
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can you name one country from my world?? just curious
you seem to really be magically educated about the place i come from and im just wondering what your credentials are there
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the consequences made are in this one.
no one could care less about the memories you have of before.
and given that, there's no reason why you shouldn't be able to choose to be anything else you want. trying to say you're somehow broken and always have to be like this is just an excuse.
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i dont know what else i want though. i never said i was broken either. you're the one obsessed with thinking i'm somehow emotionally damaged goods or whatever just because i dont have the same feelings about murder that you do
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it's pretty lame if you are
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if it isn't what you want to do, you don't have to do it. who cares what anyone says. me, or anyone else.
there's nothing that says you have to be a particular way. whatever oaths you made to yourself about who you are or what you want to do, that's what matters.
but whatever you decide you need to take responsibility for it. and you can't be upset at people for holding you accountable for it.
trying to say you're a child has no bearing on that.
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Hmm...)
y'know, i'm actually not trying to be difficult. i really just don't know what else i would do with myself. i guess you're right that i don't have to be a particular way, but how do you even find a "new way" to be?
i don't really have goals or anything. i used to but being in this world pretty much cut that short.
i guess you're not wrong. children do shitty stuff all the time too.
what do you do in this world then?
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I'm a hunter.
I guess I'm still figuring it out, but what I want to do is help save the souls of those that might be forgotten by others. to help whoever I can, even if that might mean destroying them. no one wants to fall, or become corrupted. but that's what this place can do, so I want to find the gentlest way to let them rest.
for now that seems something I can best do as a hunter.
what I just mean is that in a world where we're all trying to find our way, nothing is simple. nothing is what we might remember it to be. and all of it has consequences that are hard to fathom. it isn't easy for anyone. me, you, or anyone.
I don't think what we remember as having motivated us from before have to stop the moment we're here, though.
what goals did you have?
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have you had much success with that? the corruption thing seems pretty complicated.
i just wanted to be with my friend wherever he was. i didn't really care what we were doing. he's my best friend and my first one. and probably my only one.
(...Listen, Killua has no idea how to form interpersonal relationships beyond Gon, okay. He really was raised as an assassin and it's kind of stunted his social growth. In case that wasn't...painfully obvious...)
how did you figure out thats what you wanted to do here? is it like stuff you did back in your world?
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to be honest I still don't remember a whole lot. but what I know is I'm good at fighting the things most people call monsters, even if when I see them I can only feel how much they hurt even to exist as they are. they suffer and cry out and just want it to end. to be at peace.
I was an exorcist. and I had to destroy the things that people would become when they were corrupted.
I remember that from before. They cried and wanted to be given relief, the souls of people who had become corrupted.
I get that though. I'm sorry if you don't have them here. I remember being with people before. people who were my friends, who I'd do anything for.
and I think more than anything I'd just want to see them again.
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in my world our life energy is called nen. if you're skilled, you can feel people's nen and what it might say about them. some people are more sensitive to it than others, but i'm not sure if i've ever felt anyone's suffering like that.
it's okay. (It really wasn't...But he has no idea how to explain how much he would always miss Gon when he's not with him.)
me too. but it seems unlikely that they will show up here with us.
do you do anything for fun here?
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And that he deserved it. ]
I can see their souls, when someone has become so corrupted they can only grieve over what they've become. even if it seems like no one else can hear or see them. so outwardly it might seem and act like a thoughtless monster, but inside the soul is still grieving. the part of them that's still human.
they cry out like they're tortured just to exist. and it feels like they lash out because of it, even if it seems like the only thing they want is for the pain to end.
it's like that here, but I can remember it from before too. sometimes I think I can still hear them, but maybe that's just this place as well.
it's sad. [ And terrible. Nauseating, really. ] no one deserves to become that.
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