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[fogsong]

[ The video comes to life with awkward fiddling, catching glimpses of a dimly lit bedroom and what looks like blank canvases leaning against a paled, paneled wall before she gets her omni set where she'd like. She steps into view and takes a seat on the floor, close enough to the camera to make out the bags beneath her eyes. She fidgets, suddenly unsure of what she's even doing. ]

Last month, right? That was fun. [ Her grin is more of a grimace and she rolls her eyes to emphasize the sarcasm that drips from her lips. It had not been fun, not one lick, but it had been painfully eye-opening. She licks her lips. ] Made me realize some things, though. Namely that I need a teacher of some sort, specifically for... [ She hesitates. She's not sure what to call them because she's never given them a label before. ] Psychic powers, I guess?

It’s not blood-related or anything. It’s complicated and personal but I’ve always had them. I just couldn’t use them. [ To put it very, very simply. ] And when I say psychic powers I’m talking telekinesis and prophetic nightmares. Things like that. [ There's more but those are harder to say out loud. ]

I don’t have much control over them. [ In a lot of ways, she’s scared of them. They’re not the reason Alessa was brought to the attention of the Order, that was just her birth and Dahlia's refusal to name a father, but they’d made it so much worse. ] I don’t really use them consciously. They just. Happen. Usually when I’m afraid or angry or overwhelmed. [ Which seems like it's going to happen a lot here. ]

And I need control over them. Not just because they’d be useful but so I don’t hurt someone on accident. [ It's so she can hurt people on purpose.

She leans forward to turn off the video but seems to realize something and adds: ] Oh, and my name's Sharon Da Silva. If there's someone that can help, I'd... really appreciate it.

[ And off the feed goes. ]

Comments

[torpour]

Then you have answered my question.

Shift your mentality from controlling your abilities because they're destructive to controlling them because you want to protect people. You'll find far more success when you frame your training that way. Do you know why that is?

[fogsong]

[ She waves her hand in a lazy, exaggerated fashion. ] Uh, something something positivity?

[torpour]

[nehan snorts.]

Close, but not enough.

Thinking of your abilities as destructive can lead to fear. Fear of what you can do yields almost nothing-- it will make you latch onto the very first positive effect you've managed to accomplish, the very first use that gets you results, and you wont branch out despite all the other possibilities of what you could do with your power, because you're afraid to take risks, or think outside the box.

But if you concentrate on the fact that you'll be able to protect people, you can find inspiration come to you more easily.