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[ Luna Lovegood is perhaps the best she's looked in months. Despite the exhausted look about her, and the expression of queasiness — she's void of any trace of Corruption. She's been spending the past several days sleeping, and not sleeping; trying to calm her stomach from the copious amounts of wild animals she'd devoured as a beast. While sustenance for her in Beastform, her stomach now she's human again is... far more delicate. But the worst of it has passed, at least. And Peter has been a blessing for her, making sure she's alright — even if eating has been a little bit of a struggle.

She sits in her room, sat on her bed with her knees curled up to her chest, still dressed in pyjamas. Her Omni rests on her bedside as she begins the broadcast. She's anxious; her brow drawn down in a sorrowful frown. It's important, though. People deserve apologies, even she deserves no luxury of apology in return. She hurt people, quite a lot — and while the memories of the latter half of April are foggy at best, she knows she's done some terrible things. ]

I realise a great deal of people may be very upset with me right now. I would have done this sooner, but I... needed a little bit of time to sort out my mind. [ She's still trying to do that, but it's now or never. ]

I remember the butterflies, and then... it gets a bit mixed up after that. [ It was like... falling down a very, very deep hole. Slowly slipping away from herself, and into something cold and dark and twisted. ]

I'm sorry. I know I hurt a lot of people, I know I— I think I killed people, too. I know I wasn't myself, I became someone terrible and then something terrible. A monstrous Beast. [ It hurts to refer herself as that. No beast is monstrous. But she did monstrous things. That is... simply how it is, and she's ashamed of herself. ] I know people might think it isn't my fault, that I became a Beast — but I still did those things. I barely even know who I did them to, I don't remember much.

But I'm very sorry.

[ She doesn't expect forgiveness, not at all. She's alright with that. Luna's quiet for a long tome, just leaving the apology there. But after a while, she inhales and continues. ]

I was lucky. My friends found me, my boyfriend found me. They brought me back. They knew who I was even though I was a Beast. I can only guess others haven't and won't be so fortunate. [ How many times have Sleepers been killed as Beasts? How many will be in future? ]

I've been doing some thinking, the past couple of days. How to... maybe help Sleepers, somehow. Back home, someone very important to me, a hero to me really, led the way in the study of magical beasts — he's one of the greatest Magizoologists known to Wizardkind. He offered a great deal of insight into beast behaviours, abilities and how best to care for them — compiled it into a textbook.

I'd... like to start doing something like that, but for Sleepers in their Beastforms. I want to do it as my area of study at the School of Mutter. An encyclopaedia of Sleepers' forms of Beasthood, noting their appearance, abilities, strengths and weaknesses. But also how best to help them, calm them down. Bring them back.

[ She doesn't want it to mean it's how to kill them. No, no. Not at all. It's how best to help Sleepers, so they don't have to be killed. But also knowing how best to deal with them, so other Sleepers don't end up getting killed when dealing with Beasts. Merlin knows how many Witches and Wizards were likely killed by magical creatures they had no clue on how to handle them. Wild animals are just that, they can kill. ]

I could have very easily met death at the hands of a Hunter, but I was lucky I didn't. Knowledge is a very powerful tool, and I believe it could do a great deal of good. [ That being said: ] If people have information they'd like to share about their Beastforms, or how they've dealt with bringing Sleepers back — I would like to hear it for my research.

If you'd rather speak in person, you may find me at Ritual Gig in Willful Machine. [ There's a little pause, her voice wobbling slightly. ] You... may have known it as John Constantine's shop, but moving forward I shall be taking up the reins in his absence.

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Yeah- Her and her lanky as fuck boy toy.

[Okay. The laughing is not helping here but he is aware that Maul could probably kick his ass again.

...Will that stop him?

Probably not!]

I'm not saying she has to be sorry- Even if she's on here pouring her fucking heart out.

I'm just saying if she tries shit like that again it wont end the same way.

[Hearing that Paimon had helped Luna doesn't surprise Maul at all. And he's certain that it was Paimon and not Peter. Peter was about as threatening as a kitten. Paimon on the other hand.... well, Maul knows it's just a good idea not to piss him off. The thought makes him chuckle again.]

Sorry is a generic emotion anyway. You say it for everything from spilling a drink to killing someone.

[Maul looks highly skeptical.]

Uh-huh. You need to learn to stop picking on those much more powerful than you. Stop being foolish or you'll die a score more times before you figure that out.

[Johnny hasn't found out that Peter and Paimon are different entities. He just thinks the kid is a freak at the moment.]

You might have a point there. But if you just let asshole walk all over you they aren't going to stop. And I might not always win but I'm not the kind of guy to run away from to a challenge.

They may beat me today but that doesn't mean I'm going to stop improving.

There's a difference between running away from a challenge and deciding not to commit suicide by taking on someone you know is too strong to beat.

[Maul's learned that the hard way over the years.]

I get that but you'll never know if you can't beat someone if you don't try. And that asshole is going to keep trying to throw his weight around unless someone stands up to him.

This would sound better coming from a man who hadn't died at least twice already.

Three times.

[..............Are you kidding him right now?]

[Nope, he knows Johnny is telling the truth.]

.................You are not helping your case right now.

Do you just desperately enjoy being a squid? Is that it?

[He hasn't felt his brain hurting this much since some of the conversations he'd had with Charlie.]

I was just setting the record straight. Doesn't matter if it's a shitty record or not.

...I'm kind of warming up to it but it was freaky as shit at first.

[Maul rubs at his temple horns like he's got a headache.]

You need to start listening to other people. If you did, you'd live longer.

I listen plenty.

When I hear something worth listening to.

[This might be something worth listening to.]

But I'm not going to back down from a fight just because I can't win it either.

Then you must not listen much at all from what I've seen.

[This city seems to need at least one village idiot at all times and Johnny is filling that role rather nicely right now.]

The hell is that supposed to mean?

[Johnny is definitely the current reigning village idiot.]

You don't strike me as someone who ever listens to what others have to say very hard.

I'd be a lot more willing to listen if most people had something useful to say.
Or didn't act all high and mighty when they say it.

You should find out who has been here a long time and consider listening to them. Anyone who has lived in this town, or was in the previous one for any length of time, has lived through a lot of what this place can throw at a person. I spent more than a year in Deerington and now close to a year in this place, so I am one of those that has been here for quite a while.

You may not respect people all that much but I'm sure you can respect what wisdom experience can bring. I'm not just talking to you because I like the sound of my own voice. Understand?

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