Video UN: glyphywitchy [Back dated to May 12]

[imaglyphwitch]

[It's been a few days since dying, and Luz had unfortunately kept this to herself. If you haven't been able to tell, this girl has been having a pretty rough month, and it didn't seem to be getting better. She lurched her device to focus, and, though coughing, was looking directly into the camera].

So. Uh. Died. First time, ha ha, not a fun experience. Kinda looking for some company, here or just on this thing otherwise. I should probably be getting rest, yes, but staring up at the ceiling regretting stuff and hating yourself can only keep out the quiet for so long.

Also, been out of the loop a bit. Someone update me on things?


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Luz was pretty sure that she was going to get an earful from people in the house, but ESPECIALLY from Ahiru, who had very much not wanted her to go on the mission. Luz had thought she could handle it and had handled somewhat similar situations before. Now, though, since they'd talked about it before, Luz knew it looked even WORSE.

Add the whole mix of self-loathing for being too weak to avoid death and the ever-present gloom of missing Fern and Varian, and Luz was pretty much a powder keg of emotions and blah. She was in her room right now, dimly lit with her purple lights and surrounded by a fort of stuffed animals and, well, Luz was a sight to see.

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[danserai]

[ knock.

knock.

this may constitute as passive aggressiveness. ]

The infamous "deer in headlights" icon!

[imaglyphwitch]

[Luz heard the knock and, holding her breath, knew this was coming.

Yes, she could tell by the knock].

Come in!

[She practically croaked that part, because she thought she could guess what was coming].

[danserai]

[ she pauses for a moment. takes in a deep breath.

then pushes the door open. ]

It's me.

[imaglyphwitch]

[Luz smiled].

I thought it was you, Ahiru. I know your knocks.

1/2

[danserai]

Oh, really? I guess I like to stick to knocking in a certain way —

2/2 end

[danserai]

— Wait, I'm not going to let you distract me!

Re: 2/2 end

[imaglyphwitch]

Was that what I was doing?

[She wasn't, but now she wished it was. Here it comes].

[danserai]

Maybe! I don't know!

I just — You broke your promise!

[imaglyphwitch]

Not sure I know what you mean...

[danserai]

[ getting angry isn't something she does. it's not like her. ]

You know what I mean. I asked you not to do it and you said you'd be safe.

Please don't ask for details as Luz hasn't actually died in the log yet

[imaglyphwitch]

I do.

[Luz looked down, and here, a little of her armor fell].

It was stupid. There were a lot of people there, and there was no reason for me to get hurt. I was stupid. I was...I was weak.

all good!

[danserai]

[ stupid and weak are not words ahiru would use. even when angry. she subsides a little. ]

You're trying to do everything and be everywhere, Luz. It's not possible.

Re: all good!

[imaglyphwitch]

I'd promised to do this! I was trying to keep people safe, you know?

There were so many people ready to take this thing down too! I thought it would be impossible to get too hurt unless you got close, but.

I underestimated it. I'm sorry. I never want to worry you guys.

text; private; un: LSKennedy

[makingthetime]

I'm sorry.

Do you need anything else? Besides company. I'm sure you've got people on their way already. [And to be honest, Leon's not sure she wants him around, since it's his mess she got killed in.] I can get you whatever you need. It's the least I can do.

[danserai]

. . . I know you didn't want to.

But you should have listened to me.

Re: text; private; un: LSKennedy

[imaglyphwitch]

Don't be. I was the one who wanted to do this. I'm sorry I let you down.

[Boy, if you thought she was going to blame YOU Leon, you clearly do not know Luz and her slide into self-admonishment]!

But if you wanted to come by and drop some tea, I wouldn't complain.

[imaglyphwitch]

I had to try, Ahiru.

I have these powers, this MAGIC. I want to use it to help people. That's why I do it. So no one has to lose people like this.

[danserai]

. . . Magic isn't always enough.

And they're not the only thing that matters.

[imaglyphwitch]

Of course not. Smarts, ammunition, traps, combined atta-oh, you didn't mean that, did you?

What do you mean? Of course people matter!

[danserai]

But you're not treating yourself like you matter, Luz!

[makingthetime]

No, look, you didn't let me or anyone else down. You did well, and I'm sorry I didn't look out for you as well as I should've.

[They're just going to be a couple of self-admonishing sadsacks, then.]

What kind of tea?

[imaglyphwitch]

I...but...look, it's just...

[Darn it, Luz doesn't have a comeback for this].

[danserai]

. . . When you don't care about yourself, it's just another kind of cruelty.

You wouldn't let anyone treat us that way. So how is it okay for you?

[imaglyphwitch]

I can fly, and I have magic! You should have been worrying about your ground guys! They had way more to lose if that monster got to them!

[Luz is thinking logically, and also, unfortunately, not as clearly as she should have about herself].

Um. Hmm. Darn it. Lavender?

[makingthetime]

You're also a kid, even as experienced as you are. You should've been safe enough at a distance. I'm sorry that you weren't, that's on me.

[Leon—would rather do anything but talk about this, right now, even over the network. He'd rather be drinking, really, but he told this kid he'd get her some tea so that's what he's gonna fucking do.]

Lavender's fine.

...do you want to hang out with Barbra? [And along comes a picture of Leon's Oshawott, smugly snacking on a cookie from a very high shelf.]