Video UN: glyphywitchy [Back dated to May 12]

[imaglyphwitch]

[It's been a few days since dying, and Luz had unfortunately kept this to herself. If you haven't been able to tell, this girl has been having a pretty rough month, and it didn't seem to be getting better. She lurched her device to focus, and, though coughing, was looking directly into the camera].

So. Uh. Died. First time, ha ha, not a fun experience. Kinda looking for some company, here or just on this thing otherwise. I should probably be getting rest, yes, but staring up at the ceiling regretting stuff and hating yourself can only keep out the quiet for so long.

Also, been out of the loop a bit. Someone update me on things?


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Luz was pretty sure that she was going to get an earful from people in the house, but ESPECIALLY from Ahiru, who had very much not wanted her to go on the mission. Luz had thought she could handle it and had handled somewhat similar situations before. Now, though, since they'd talked about it before, Luz knew it looked even WORSE.

Add the whole mix of self-loathing for being too weak to avoid death and the ever-present gloom of missing Fern and Varian, and Luz was pretty much a powder keg of emotions and blah. She was in her room right now, dimly lit with her purple lights and surrounded by a fort of stuffed animals and, well, Luz was a sight to see.

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[imaglyphwitch]

I...but...look, it's just...

[Darn it, Luz doesn't have a comeback for this].

[danserai]

. . . When you don't care about yourself, it's just another kind of cruelty.

You wouldn't let anyone treat us that way. So how is it okay for you?

[imaglyphwitch]

[Luz looked down, quietly].

Ahiru. I care about myself. I wasn't trying to get hurt, or die.

Please understand that I will always want to protect us, no matter what. You're my family. If something comes and hurts us, I'll be the first to try and keep it away. That's just how I think.

But I never wanted to hurt you either.

[danserai]

. . . But you did.

Because I felt it.

[imaglyphwitch]

[Well now Luz really felt bad].

The Bond. Right.

Ahiru. I'm so sorry.

[danserai]

I know you are.

[ how to explain that it wasn't taking on luz's pain that was devastating . . . but the fact that ahiru had warned this could happen and luz just . . . didn't consider her words.

if she had been a real human, would it have mattered more? would she have had a better chance of reaching her, like fern or varian or eda?

maybe ahiru just can't do it. ]

[imaglyphwitch]

[Luz sighed].

Ahiru, I want you to know that I tried, I really did. I did my best to keep out his way, I tried to use delayed spells to fight it, and there really were a lot of people around. I didn't think there was any way that this thing could land a hit if we were all focusing on taking him out in stages.

I wasn't just trying to jump in without any plans. I really thought we would take it easily. That's no excuse, and you were right.

I don't want...to hurt you like this again though.

[danserai]

. . . I'm not worried about getting hurt.

I just want you to take care of yourself.

[imaglyphwitch]

I worry about you getting hurt. How could I not? You mean a lot to me. All of you do.

I promise, I will. I don't like seeing you upset.

[danserai]

[ luz promised last time too. ahiru can't help but squint a little. ]

Okay.

[imaglyphwitch]

[To be fair, Luz had been pretty sure that she was NOT going to die! She'd been in worst situations! But she meant this, for Ahiru].

I'll do my best to make this stick. You guys mean everything to me, and not just because of the Bond.

And since I'm being honest, in a few days, I will be out of the house for a bit because I'm going to a karate tournament. If you want to cheer me on, you can pop over!

[danserai]

[ a what now. ]

Is that dangerous?

[imaglyphwitch]

Well no one's dying from that, just getting a butt kicking!

Probably me. Definitely me. But other people too!

[danserai]

Maybe I'll come to check on you. Just in case.

[imaglyphwitch]

Please do! It'd be great to see you cheering me on!

[Even if she lost]!

[danserai]

Then that's what I'll do.

[imaglyphwitch]

Great! I'll make sure to do my best!

[danserai]

Good luck.