( video | un: alucard )

[ananym]

[ he really hates doing this . . . but alucard knows he needs to commit to it. the feed turns on with him looking . . . not quite sheepish, but a tinge of irritation layered with contriteness. ]

Last month, I had the unfortunate issue of losing control of my vampiric nature and lashed out onto a number of people here. I hope you would be willing to accept my apology and if not, direct me in ways where I can make amends. I . . . do not usually need or require blood as sustenance so it took me by surprise.

My apologies. If it helps, it seems I've lost my sense of taste. Perhaps that is penance in a way.

Comments

[ananym]

Unfortunately, I cannot help what I am.

[ and this is the first real time he's felt distaste for it. alucard has never been ashamed of being a vampire. he's not sure he likes the taste of it now. ]

[siriusly]

N-no, and I don't blame you for it! If that's what it sounded like, auh...well. I can't say I usually get into conversations like this, so that's probably on me.

[ananym]

[ alucard seems bemused. ]

What sort of conversations are you typically involved with?

[siriusly]

[he makes a false-start sound, and if he could, he'd be making dial-up noises for a beat there.

as it stands, there's just the quiet. for a beat.]

Erh, just...not...ones talking about how to kill one another, you know...?

[ananym]

No? I never would have guessed.

[siriusly]

[oh no

oh no is this a sarcasm person

goddammit HE'S REALLY SHITTY AT DETECTING SARCASM PROPERLY, DILUC WHERE ARE YOU]

Y-yeah, well-! [COUGHAHEM.] That's how it is. And...I asked what I needed to ask. So. So I can leave it at that!

[ananym]

[ he is indeed, though it's very subtle. ]

Of course. I hope you have recovered well since the incident.

[siriusly]

Eh? Oh--yeah. It's just a bruise now.

[ananym]

That is a relief. It healed quickly.

[siriusly]

Mn, yeah. Don't worry about me, I'm good. [it's other people he's worried about.]

[ananym]

That's quite a rebound.

[siriusly]

It is? [news to him.] M-maybe it's just my blood. I'm a pretty normal guy besides that...

[ananym]

Oh?

What would you consider to be normal?

[siriusly]

[UH...]

Uh, well...just. A human with...no fancy powers, you know? Er--if...if humans are much of a thing where you're from.

[ananym]

We do have humans.

However, I wasn't aware not having powers meant humans were less special.

[siriusly]

[c'mon, man...]

I mean, like...as far as getting by here goes, you know?

[ananym]

You did survive my encounter. Not many would say the same.

[siriusly]

Be-because of the blood-stuff! That's not normal. Normal for normal humans, you know! If it weren't for that, if this were back where I'm from, I'd...

[...]

...Well, our medical tech back home is really, really good, but that's got nothing to do with me.

[ananym]

[ alucard can't quite comprehend this. humans are varied, but he's seen their strength. their power. there are times when their helplessness overwhelms them but that's not what he remembered with manabu. ]

I do not think it was your blood that aided your survival.

[siriusly]

Really? [he doesn't sound super convinced.] I mean, anything's possible, I guess... If you were driven to do awful things, who's to say something else was at play to make it easier to survive?

[ananym]

You are making it akin to fate.

Fate does not keep people alive.

[siriusly]

What- you think Fate only deals with how people die?

[ananym]

I don't think much of fate at all. Especially when it concerns who lives and who dies.

[siriusly]

[he breathes out a soft sound.]

I guess...considering all the crazy creatures and effects here, that makes sense...

[ananym]

It would be the same anywhere. Regardless of power.

Only you are responsible for your own life.