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cw: this entire post deals with depression, abandonment issues, & loss of a loved one.

why isn't he here yet? he should had been back by now. i shouldnt had ran away from him. i should had stayed. i shouldnt had been such a coward. its my fault he's not here. hes never coming back. im never going to see him again. he left me please come back please im sorry please im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry come back come back please come back. i promise to do better if u just come back. please please. im sorry im sorry

( this is going to continue on until she hits some sort of character limit and this gets sent through the deernet. )

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[whatever she was doing? that's getting ditched, sorry. it's only a client, and hopefully they're understanding - she's not really all that sorry. she did sign up for it, after all. and she feels it before she even reads all of the words, not that she needs to read the litany of apologies that break her apart a little from the inside.]

Hey, hey. Where are you? What's happening?

[more for jinx than herself - more so that she can hear a voice - have a line thrown out to her as if she's adrift. it's a guess that she's on the beach - vi is lucky that this has happened before, but she's panicked that jinx might revert to squid form again, and she's unsure what, if anything, has caused it. nothing need have caused it, she probably feel this every day.

sevika showing up had surely not helped any. which figures. now she really wishes she would have thrown that punch.]

vi? how am i hearing u? im not wearing the ring. or wait are u coming thru the omni? i cant rly look.

It's random, Jinx. People who come out of the sea, people who go back.

Where are you?

its not random. everyone i know from our realm is here BUT him.

It's the Omni, yeah. You sent this over the network, and I'm guessing you didn't mean to.

[black smoke is a go: huge omen is a go. fast travel is happening.]

Are you on the beach? Just stay put [ha], I'm coming, wherever you are. It's gonna be okay.

[maybe. she's going to try.]

( stay put, she says. there's no issue there. and jinx doesn't have the heart to tell her she can no longer move. and even if she could, there's no drive for her to even lift a finger. not when the ghosts are looming over her shoulder -- their grips on her shoulder to weight her further into the sand. )

i wonder if this is the same water we stood in... he said theres peace in water. so why would he come out of peace?

Edited 2023-02-02 00:28 (UTC)

Singed isn't here. I am sure there are plenty of other people you could list as well.

None of us make the decision to come here or leave. It's not a reflection on you or him, Jinx.

i did smth awful to him. and when he was here i was awful to him then too. i jinxed everything. just like i always do.

[she'll find that out soon enough when she sees what's become of jinx - but just now.]

Why did he come out the first time, then? I saw it. He didn't try and go back in.

[it's a hated memory, and it has no right to tug on her heartstrings in this way, but it does all the same because of what it's tangled into. none of this is simple.]

I doubt that. If you and I can become friends despite our history I find it very difficult to believe you did anything he wouldn't forgive you for.

that was before i screwed up again.

well my jinx obvs feels different about it. im stuck.

Bullshit, P---

[she almost slips - it's because with thoughts of silco come thoughts of powder - the was, the past, the might haves the could haves the should haves, the things that slipped out of grasp as quick as a blink. (or a slap.)]

---that's bullshit. I'm sure you screwed up plenty back home and he didn't care.

[it's not an insult, but she isn't exactly wording things carefully when she's whipping across rooftops and through lamps.]

dont worry about me, vi. just...forget about this. ill get over it.

Nah. We're a team, Jinx. A package deal. What kind of a sister would I be if I did that?

[a huff, through a bit of a caught breath.]

I'm not doing that. I was always shit at following rules anyway.

Edited 2023-02-02 02:16 (UTC)

who needs rules and reasons, right?

[she doesn't - not right now, anyway. and the reply stills her nerves the smallest bit before she's there, at that last lamp on the beach. the one she'd placed there when she was looking for jinx. her omen dissipates, moving back into her chest and allowing her to regain a bit of resolve. a bit of calm that she tries to project outward like a shield. she'll be there in a moment.]

Stuck how?

i cant move anymore. cant blink cant do anything.

[ Chizuru has a feeling that she knows who this is about, at least.

Does that make it any less concerning to suddenly see this message appear on the network with Jinx's username attached? Of course not. The sentiment being expressed is already painful enough, but to imagine why Jinx is sending this, what might be going on--

Chizuru can feel a rush of panic already moving through her when she quickly grabs her Omni to frantically reply. ]

jinx
what happened
where are you

[ She's ready to rush out the door in an instant. ]

stay away. u'll get jinxed too if u get close to me.

Where are you? If you aren't somewhere secure I can at the very least have Rio help move you.

nowhere. vi is already on her way b/c shes stubborn and wont let me just stay where i am. i dont think u want rio to get jinxed. wait do omens get jinxed???

I don't know exactly what you're going through.
But I ran away from home myself.
I know it's hard to outrun the guilt from doing something like that.
But I'm sure you had your reasons.

whoa! squidbuddy!

what's going on??

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