Text UN: 1stStrike CW: Comp Het/Internalized homophobia?

[strikefirster]

[Johnny Lawrence stares at his Omni briefly. Ever since the whole speed dating fiascothe month before there has been something nagging at him. Something that didn't quite feel right to him.

Which is what brings him to his Omni today. And after two or three times where he is accidentally posted on the network one would think he'd learn his lesson, right?]

How not to be gay.

Is doing karate with dudes gay now?

[Wrong.

The network is not google, Johnny.]

Comments

[miyagimagic]

[ Well, Daniel was planning on just leaving this one on read, but he absolutely can't have Robby involving himself here, so there's no choice but to take the burden of interaction upon himself instead, huh. ]

Why do you even assume I'd want to talk to you. Let alone listen to your suggestions.

[ "Suggestions."

Daniel is not Johnny, okay, he can tell when someone is just trying to rile him up.. Even when it does work all the same.. ]

[survivalthroughhate]

It worked, didn't it? You're talking to me right now.

[Sorry, Daniel, any attention at this point would have been good the way Maul was seeing things. He was an asshole like that.]

As for those suggestions, out of you, me, and the idiot in question, only one of us is in a happy relationship right now with someone else. I know more about what I'm talking about than you'd care to admit.

[miyagimagic]

I am literally married.

[survivalthroughhate]

Congratulations. Unless they are here in Trench, I fail to see how much that changes things.

.............Unless this is an extremely oblique way of telling me you married Johnny at some point, in which case, also congratulations and thank you for giving me a good laugh.

[miyagimagic]

[ Ugh, that definitely strikes a chord within Daniel. Not even the dumb 'married to Johnny' thing, no, he isn't insecure about stuff being gay the way Johnny must have been to make this post in the first place, after all.

No, it's being reminded of his family not being here, and Maul acting like that somehow makes them less significant. That does set him off. ]

Who the hell would forget what their happy and healthy relationship with someone is like just because they don't see them for a few months?

Besides, if you gave even the slightest crap about my son after everything you've done to him, you would stop harassing me after he asked you to knock it off.

[survivalthroughhate]

You don't forget. Not ever. But they aren't here and might never be. So you adapt.

[Then he read the second part of that text and a whole whopping piece of the puzzle he'd clearly been missing up until now. He star]

Y'know, you're not really disproving the whole "married to Johnny" thing if you're sharing custody of a kid together.

Alright, all joking aside? "Everything I've done" to Robby was done purely because I thought he could use my help. I wasn't getting anything out of teaching him other than seeing him grow as a person and make sure he had the tools here to help him from dying a most painful death. Simply because YOU have a clear bias against me doesn't mean I'm out to manipulate and hurt everyone around me. And I was completely unaware of how deep the relationship between the two of you went up until just this moment.

[miyagimagic]

Did you really think he would never find out?

[ Apparently that's the crux of the issue, since Daniel sure is skipping a whole lot here otherwise. The talk about his wife, for once, since he knows that's only going to make him more upset in the end, and even the dumb joke thing about him and Johnny-- and even his personal issues with Maul.

Because he's not focusing on the training itself here as the issue, though Daniel would entirely disagree with Maul's ideas about training.

It's something that goes beyond the personal, and much more into the protective side of Daniel. ]

Didn't you think for even a moment that he'd feel awful the moment he'd find out he trained with the person who murdered his own father? It's not like it hasn't been public knowledge for a while now that they're related.

You have no idea about the kind of effect you've had on him.

[survivalthroughhate]

Contrary to how I may act, I don't know everything about every single Sleeper. I'm not omniscient. I honestly had no idea Robby was related to Johnny until well after I'd already started training him. I only found out during one of Johnny's last idiot-fueled accidental posts, that apology letter one. Robby didn't seem like he was in a good place right after that to hear "By the way, I killed your father in a fit of rage months ago" from me. I had planned to tell him when I felt he'd be in a good place to hear it from me. It's just so often this place makes being in a good place mentally impossible.

So you can stop with this assumption I'm some sort of master manipulator who was doing this for my own nefarious purposes. Quit projecting your own past and your issues with it onto the present.

And actually I DO know the kind of effect I've had on him because he contacted me about the whole thing. I gave him an apology for my short-sighted actions a year ago and the ripple effect they've had since then. He's free to interact with or shun me as he wishes now.

[miyagimagic]

Yeah, sure. You hurt someone I care for, killed someone else I care about, and shat all over a painful experience for me. But sure, I'm just projecting and clearly couldn't have any other reasons to dislike you. You're a model citizen who thinks a boy is ever going to be in a good place to hear that his father got murdered for absolutely no reason.

You can send me anything else you want, but know I'm not going to reply, because I actually care about Robby and don't want him to have to come across this crap later while he said he doesn't want it.

[survivalthroughhate]

Go on then, run away as soon as you might have to consider anything besides that rigid mindset you've already settled on. Coward.

Something to think about as you sit up there on your high fathier and ignore me. I'm not a nice person which has been made abundantly clear. I can be selfish and self-centered and think only of myself. So why in the Force would I apologize to both Johnny and Robby unless I actually meant it? I got nothing out of it and apologizing for anything I've done is about as pleasant for me as having my claws pulled out one by one. I did so because it was the right thing to do. That's not something I'm used to ever doing. But I'm trying to do so now whether you believe that or not.

[miyagimagic]

[ Sticking to his word, the message remains unread. ]