Text UN: 1stStrike CW: Comp Het/Internalized homophobia?

[strikefirster]

[Johnny Lawrence stares at his Omni briefly. Ever since the whole speed dating fiascothe month before there has been something nagging at him. Something that didn't quite feel right to him.

Which is what brings him to his Omni today. And after two or three times where he is accidentally posted on the network one would think he'd learn his lesson, right?]

How not to be gay.

Is doing karate with dudes gay now?

[Wrong.

The network is not google, Johnny.]

Comments

[hauntedsavior]

Yeah, I mean. Growing up in the late 70s, early 80s with a macho man dad could fuck a kid up big time.
I'm not surprised but I am sorry that you had to go through with it.
My dad's kind of an asshole, too, but like... it's both my parents, really.

I still don't know how you can grow up in west Berlin and turn out to be such a raging fucking bigot, but that's Peter and Renate Lehmann for you, I guess.

It blows, dude. It blows that these people who aren't even in your life anymore can still have such a huge influence over you.
I'm sorry.

[strikefirster]

...My dad's a different story.
He fucking bailed out when I was young. Don't know the first thing about him.
She got with a rich asshole next. He was around but basically just to be a bully.
My sensei was the first person to give me any sort of attention. But what he did to me was a whole different degree of fucked up.

That shit sucks, kid. But I get it. But- We here now and doing our fucking best.
That's what counts, right?

[hauntedsavior]

Shit, man.
All of it sucks.
Not to get Freudian on you, but I think I get where you're coming from way better now.
I'm so fucking sorry. And I'm proud of you for making what you have out of the shit hand you got given.

Hey, you know what, we should do something else when we hang out and drink beer together.
So we don't just end up navel gazing the whole time.
We could watch some fuckin' movies together or something. That sound good?
You seen Rocky?