text | un: moonmochi

[hopticulture]

It's strange. There was a lot I wanted to do before I turned twenty.

It doesn't feel wrong to have been brought here, but I wish I wasn't by myself. I remember wanting to spend today with people I cared about, but that's not possible anymore.

[someone is very clearly brooding & feeling the effects of Cloverfield.]

People tend to roll their eyes whenever a girl talks about her feelings in a vague way for everyone to read, but if I didn't say anything about today, I'd probably feel much worse.

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[hopticulture]

Even if you did roll your eyes at this, I wouldn't exactly blame you.

I'll probably roll my eyes at this in a few hours.

[lightinside]

Do you think it would make you feel better if you did?

[hopticulture]

Sometimes it does feel better having people point out how ridiculous you're acting.

[lightinside]

I guess.

For the record, I think whatever you're feeling is valid. I'm lucky to have my sister with me here.

[hopticulture]

I see, that's probably nice.

But as lonely as it is being here with nobody I really know all that well, I wouldn't want to see my family or loved ones here either.

[lightinside]

I'd prefer it if my family and friends were back home, where they belong. So I feel you on that.

Everyone I've spoken to so far seem friendly so I think it wouldn't be hard to get to know them.

[hopticulture]

Everyone seems friendly here, and it's been nice getting a fresh start. But I was never the kind of person who made many friends, either.

[lightinside]

Can I ask why? Only if you wanna share of course, I'll understand if you don't.

[hopticulture]

In middle and highschool it was because of my lifestyle. So I got used to keeping to myself, which is why I have a hard time relating to other female rabbits my age.

[not in a 'i'm not like other girls' kind of way but in a 'i got so used to be alone that i don't really act The Right Way' sort of way.]

[lightinside]

School can be tough sometimes. Sorry you had to deal with all of that.

[Not that Laurel had much of an issue during school. It was later in life that her problems arose.]

Did you say rabbit?

[hopticulture]

It wasn't all bad...and now I'm in university so all of that is behind me now.

And yes, I said rabbit. I'm a white dwarf rabbit.

[lightinside]

Huh. Okay. Well, I wasn't expecting that if I'm being honest.

I'm human by the way. And my name is Laurel.