text | un: moonmochi

[hopticulture]

It's strange. There was a lot I wanted to do before I turned twenty.

It doesn't feel wrong to have been brought here, but I wish I wasn't by myself. I remember wanting to spend today with people I cared about, but that's not possible anymore.

[someone is very clearly brooding & feeling the effects of Cloverfield.]

People tend to roll their eyes whenever a girl talks about her feelings in a vague way for everyone to read, but if I didn't say anything about today, I'd probably feel much worse.

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[hopticulture]

Well, this place feels way too real for it to be a dream. And I've had very realistic dreams before.

And...this really is the worst birthday I can remember having. I'm used to being independent and living on my own, but it's beginning to sink in how I'll never hear from my parents again.]

[hahah woops didn't mean for that to sound dark!!]

[droptheious]

Oh, it's definitely not the dream anymore. It feels very different. It's kinda hard to explain. Like suddenly being awake when you were pretty much dozing without realising it before?

Yeah, sorry. I know it's a lot to deal with when you're new. Would me telling you that you get used to it help any? And you'll definitely make friends here who'll make it easier. Like...if you want it or not, people are obnoxiously clingy here.