video; un: padlocks

[enblightened]

I have made my warning to a handful of you before, but there are many that I've yet to meet. And so, this is primarily to those who do not know me.

I am something to be wary of. 'Tis not meant as a threat, but a matter of what I am. Call it what you shall, be it a curse or condition, but the brand on my head is not for display only. Many would call me an abomination where I am from, and it is not far from the truth.

I fight back the instincts of a demon inside of me. I hold it back by whatever means I am able, with my will and the bonds I take with me. With years of practice, I am typically able to hold it back, but there can never be a promise of my willpower. If there comes a time in which this beast emerges and I transform, I do not expect mercy on my behalf.

I understand that there are some with a similar situation as myself, or that you have experienced enough horrors to be prepared for it. Making demands of a person is impossible, I know that, but I want to be clear that I am a thing to be careful with.

...Thank you for listening. Be well, friends and strangers alike.

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Video; UN: Cuddlebunny

[lightthedarkness]

With such a warning, doing what you can to protect others, I don't see how you're an abomination at all.

But it does sound like you're dealing with a lot on your own. Is there anything that can be done to help you? To make it easier or to remove the demon altogether?

[enblightened]

You are kind to say so.

There is nothing to be done to remove it, as much as I have tried. It is something I will carry with me, for however long I will live now. However, there are things to do in order to make it... easier.

I had a comrade once who was a performer. His music could be wicked in its intent -- or a blessing, to relieve my unsound mind. It was easier with him. There are other things, of course. Reading, meditations... Distractions, if I can afford it. But never complacency.

[lightthedarkness]

Oh! Then maybe you could learn music too! We have lots of musicians here! If that might help? And I mean, there are lots of people with experience with demons here, maybe they can help in ways you never thought of before!

[enblightened]

I am quite the terrible musician. Truthfully, I would prefer to listen. Although I certainly do appreciate your advice.

[lightthedarkness]

I mean, me too, but I'm trying anyway. It's something to do here, in any case, yeah?

[enblightened]

I feel as if I were to try, my comrade would be irritated if he were here. [There's a soft huff, not quite a laugh.] But I suppose I've enough time to try to be halfway decent.

What instrument are you trying, young lady?

[lightthedarkness]

I'm trying a lyre! It's like a portable harp! My thought process was, even if you really suck, you can never make a harp sound bad! And since a lyre is a mini-harp, the same concept has to apply, right? So far I'm still just learning keys and whatnot.

[enblightened]

A fine thought. Harps and lyres are indeed quite lovely.

Perhaps it's a terrible decision, but perhaps I will find a lute to attempt. Then I will make you look like a professional, no doubt.

[lightthedarkness]

I dunnoooo, I'm pretty terrible. Just ask literally any teacher I had growing up.

[enblightened]

I will have to take my own opinion due to their lack of presence here.

[lightthedarkness]

I won't be upset when you wince at how I sound.

[enblightened]

Nor I would be with you.

[lightthedarkness]

We can sound awful together, then, and at least let the real musicians feel amazing again.