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[enblightened]

I have made my warning to a handful of you before, but there are many that I've yet to meet. And so, this is primarily to those who do not know me.

I am something to be wary of. 'Tis not meant as a threat, but a matter of what I am. Call it what you shall, be it a curse or condition, but the brand on my head is not for display only. Many would call me an abomination where I am from, and it is not far from the truth.

I fight back the instincts of a demon inside of me. I hold it back by whatever means I am able, with my will and the bonds I take with me. With years of practice, I am typically able to hold it back, but there can never be a promise of my willpower. If there comes a time in which this beast emerges and I transform, I do not expect mercy on my behalf.

I understand that there are some with a similar situation as myself, or that you have experienced enough horrors to be prepared for it. Making demands of a person is impossible, I know that, but I want to be clear that I am a thing to be careful with.

...Thank you for listening. Be well, friends and strangers alike.

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[wwrench]

There's always a cost to others, when you're in community with them. That's just part of the deal. Look, I know it's not easy, but one of the lessons someone close to me was trying to teach me is that you've got to let others determine if that cost is worth it. Does that make sense? Don't just tell them you're too much. Let them decide it for themselves.

[enblightened]

...Ah.

[It's not the first time that revelation has been made to him, but it still is surprising to witness. Bigby ducks his head, sheepish.]

I suppose you would be right. It is an easy thing to forget, that there will be people placing a worth in you, even if you see none.

[wwrench]

Not the easiest lesson, I know. There was someone in the place I was before this one who worked hard to try to teach me it. I try to remember how much it hurt him to feel like I wasn't letting him make decisions for himself.

Everyone has worth. How have you been spending your time since you got here?

[enblightened]

I will attempt to remember this myself.

Exploring. Finding distractions. Understanding the city and the land. Tis not much of a list, but there is much to learn of this place.

[wwrench]

Seems like the best thing any of us can do. What do you think so far? How does it compare to where you're from?

I probably should've asked you before what you're called.

[enblightened]

No harm done, rest assured.

It's much calmer than the hamlet I tended to before. A stronger foundation of unity. More welcoming. Although there is a part of me that feels lessened without my comrades, I am still glad to know the people here who are welcoming me.

[wwrench]

Well, I prefer Wrench. Just what people have called me most of my life.

I think the majority of people here probably feel different in some way. So you've got that in common, at least.

[enblightened]

Bigby is my name. If Wrench is what you prefer, then I will call you that.

That is true. Still, it is the most welcome I've felt anywhere in a very long time.