bigby | The Abomination (
enblightened) wrote in
deernet2021-11-12 03:46 pm
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I have made my warning to a handful of you before, but there are many that I've yet to meet. And so, this is primarily to those who do not know me.
I am something to be wary of. 'Tis not meant as a threat, but a matter of what I am. Call it what you shall, be it a curse or condition, but the brand on my head is not for display only. Many would call me an abomination where I am from, and it is not far from the truth.
I fight back the instincts of a demon inside of me. I hold it back by whatever means I am able, with my will and the bonds I take with me. With years of practice, I am typically able to hold it back, but there can never be a promise of my willpower. If there comes a time in which this beast emerges and I transform, I do not expect mercy on my behalf.
I understand that there are some with a similar situation as myself, or that you have experienced enough horrors to be prepared for it. Making demands of a person is impossible, I know that, but I want to be clear that I am a thing to be careful with.
...Thank you for listening. Be well, friends and strangers alike.
I am something to be wary of. 'Tis not meant as a threat, but a matter of what I am. Call it what you shall, be it a curse or condition, but the brand on my head is not for display only. Many would call me an abomination where I am from, and it is not far from the truth.
I fight back the instincts of a demon inside of me. I hold it back by whatever means I am able, with my will and the bonds I take with me. With years of practice, I am typically able to hold it back, but there can never be a promise of my willpower. If there comes a time in which this beast emerges and I transform, I do not expect mercy on my behalf.
I understand that there are some with a similar situation as myself, or that you have experienced enough horrors to be prepared for it. Making demands of a person is impossible, I know that, but I want to be clear that I am a thing to be careful with.
...Thank you for listening. Be well, friends and strangers alike.

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[He has a feeling he knows to some degree, but he asks anyway.]
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[He lets out an uneasy sigh.]
...Forgive me. I hardly mean to be impatient. It's a matter I have battled with for many years now.
I am not opposed to trying, but you can no more attempt to tame this fiend than you could a rabid dog.
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[He looks startled for a moment, because wow had he gone off track.]
I do not know how to help you, but beyond what I am, I am also a Paleblood. I can... know things. I have no control of when it happens, but I am willing to help you in any way I can.
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But we can try.
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[The idea that the poor man has to be in chains to hold it back is... terrible.]
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I can choose to turn. Typically, I can control myself, even if I cannot speak. However, if it is out of my control it is... disorientating. Like waking up after a terrible nightmare, but the memory more vivid.
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To be so out of control of control of yourself, but only realizing what you've done after the fact...
It doesn't sound like my own powers are of any use, but the powers this place has given me... if you are willing, I will try everything at my disposal.
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Thank you. I will welcome your attempts. Know that even if it does not aid me, I am grateful for the efforts regardless.
My name is Bigby.
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I do have to say one thing, though, and it's that I wouldn't be able to bring myself to harm you, even out of control. Subdue, that I could do, but anything more...
It's quite horrifying to do.
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[The name, for better or for worse, does not seem to mean anything to him.]
Do as you must. Know that I would prefer you defend yourself and others from me, for my sake.
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Better that it means nothing than brings fear to a man who knows too much of it.]
You needn't worry about me.
I may not be invulnerable in this world, but I have means of defending myself in non-lethal ways. It truly is you I am most concerned about: what you are dealing with should not be dealt with alone.
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If you are certain of what you are able to do, then I will try to trust it.
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