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[snakesdonthavelegs]

RUBY
RUBY HELP ヽ(°〇°)ﾉ
I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO

ive been listening to all these pop songs from korea
ive gotten really into it actually they're super good (.❛ ᴗ ❛.)

anyway ive started watching the music videos too and
for some reason when i watched a few of the girl groups
i felt all warm and tingly and couldnt stop thinking about how pretty and cool they all were
and a lot of other stuff
AM I LEBSAIN??? w(ﾟДﾟ)w

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[royalfling]

I own a club! Well, and I work there. My husband and I run it together.

Play whatever you want! Or, maybe, play this.

[ Because that song certainly is a bop ]

[snakesdonthavelegs]

whooooa
for some reason i thought we'd be the same age
but that's so cool!

was it hard, realizing you liked guys?

[royalfling]

I'm turning 23 next month! How old are you?

Sort of! Well, not the realizing part. The realizing part was pretty easy...... My husband and I lived together for three years back home, and it was very easy to realize that I liked him.

Being okay with it was harder. My country isn't very kind to gay people, so i kept trying, and kept trying, and kept trying to like girls, or at least to act like I did! I was very bad at it. I love girls! But in a different way.

But being here, in a place where no one cares at all who you like? It's been wonderful. It's the easiest thing in the world to love Mako

[snakesdonthavelegs]

oh im 18
sheesh ur so accomplished for being young

i think there were always clues for me, but i dunno
i knew it existed but i thought it couldnt possibly be me
maybe because i wanted my life to be normal
or because i was afraid it would make everything harder especially with my family
so the thought that it could really be me hardly crossed my mind

thats amazing though
i'm really happy for you (°◡°♡)

[royalfling]

18! At least you're figuring all this out at 18. I wish I had!!

Everything I've done is since I've been here, trust me. You can do anything you want in Trench! The world is open! Or, at least, the city is!!

I understand that. Very well, actually. I tried to push it down, to flirt with girls. It never really worked, obviously.

Thank you. I hope that you find a nice gal for you here!

[snakesdonthavelegs]

i've seen so many people pushing their true selves away
i had to do it every day
be the person my family wanted me to be
i even had to hide that i was playing music!

[ Maybe her songs were a bit silly, but she was proud of them. She wished her parents could be too. ]

well it might still be a boy!!!

[ But she's already remembering a lot of things she's felt in the past, and heat is rising to her cheeks. ]

but i guess its also okay if its not

[royalfling]

I hope you don't have to do that here!!! But I understand. I had to do that at home, too. It's pretty sad, when my family dying, and then being taken here, that really made it easier to by myself!

It's okay whoever it is!!! My best buddy, he dated a bunch of girls back home, and now he's with a guy. Whoever you decide to date, I'm sure they'll be great for you.