audio, un: blue

[firstroar]

content warning: suicidal ideation



They're gone for good. Yuri...Flynn...

[audio on the Omni can pick up the ambient sounds of churning ocean waves - not the gentle ones of the beach, but the crashing white water along the cliffs. now and then, there's a little distortion from gusts of wind.

Blue speaks in a soft monotone:]

The bond...our bond... Knots undone, but...tethers remain. Dangle. Disconnected.

If I hadn't...become what I became... If this place...wasn't so much for them, then...then, maybe... They could've been happy.

[there's a lapse into silence, save for that ambient sound.]

Where can I go...what can I do? To make it permanent.

My death.

[...]

If I...relinquished my body...to the Tower. Would it protect everyone? From my psionics. Something within that creature's power...

[...]

But then...we wouldn't have encountered those mad Sleepers. The ones whose minds are abuzz with zeal for the Tower itself. Feeding it.

[another long silence with the sea.]

Surely...someone knows. Someone here...can do it. End me. [the monotone starts to get stilted with emotion.] Before I hurt anyone else. Like the monster...I was always feared to be.

Until then, I'll... Keep trying.

Until it sticks. And you're all...a little safer.

Comments

[droptheious]

I don't think that's true at all.

[He's just gonna stand firm on that one.]

I know plenty of non-humans. Heck, my boyfriend isn't human. You- you can still live here with us. It might mean adjusting, but you still have every right to live here as the rest of us do.

[firstroar]

[exhale. hhh.]

Every right, huh...

[droptheious]

Of course! You're still a person. Being...being human isn't the be-all and end-all of being a person.

[firstroar]

[Blue doesn't answer. all there is on his end is the wind and the sea while Blue gets lost in the thoughts these earnest words have elicited. it's not polite, but...honestly, Blue can't hold onto the threads of these talk - all of them. they're not attached to a mind. they're just...

sounds.

at least he's thinking about them.]