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deernet2022-05-19 06:51 am
imaglyphwitch) wrote in deernet2022-05-19 06:51 am
Video UN: glyphywitchy [Back dated to May 12]
[It's been a few days since dying, and Luz had unfortunately kept this to herself. If you haven't been able to tell, this girl has been having a pretty rough month, and it didn't seem to be getting better. She lurched her device to focus, and, though coughing, was looking directly into the camera].
So. Uh. Died. First time, ha ha, not a fun experience. Kinda looking for some company, here or just on this thing otherwise. I should probably be getting rest, yes, but staring up at the ceiling regretting stuff and hating yourself can only keep out the quiet for so long.
Also, been out of the loop a bit. Someone update me on things?
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Luz was pretty sure that she was going to get an earful from people in the house, but ESPECIALLY from Ahiru, who had very much not wanted her to go on the mission. Luz had thought she could handle it and had handled somewhat similar situations before. Now, though, since they'd talked about it before, Luz knew it looked even WORSE.
Add the whole mix of self-loathing for being too weak to avoid death and the ever-present gloom of missing Fern and Varian, and Luz was pretty much a powder keg of emotions and blah. She was in her room right now, dimly lit with her purple lights and surrounded by a fort of stuffed animals and, well, Luz was a sight to see.
So. Uh. Died. First time, ha ha, not a fun experience. Kinda looking for some company, here or just on this thing otherwise. I should probably be getting rest, yes, but staring up at the ceiling regretting stuff and hating yourself can only keep out the quiet for so long.
Also, been out of the loop a bit. Someone update me on things?
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Luz was pretty sure that she was going to get an earful from people in the house, but ESPECIALLY from Ahiru, who had very much not wanted her to go on the mission. Luz had thought she could handle it and had handled somewhat similar situations before. Now, though, since they'd talked about it before, Luz knew it looked even WORSE.
Add the whole mix of self-loathing for being too weak to avoid death and the ever-present gloom of missing Fern and Varian, and Luz was pretty much a powder keg of emotions and blah. She was in her room right now, dimly lit with her purple lights and surrounded by a fort of stuffed animals and, well, Luz was a sight to see.
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[So she won't have that excuse of having more magic than he does, so being more capable of handling herself in a dangerous situation.]
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[Well now Luz is a little offended].
Do you think this is a race to see who's stronger?
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[Unless the 'smart and capable' was the part that she was saying she had that was different from them, but if that's the case it'll be his turn to be offended.
But with how this place works, we get our own magic. You're one of us. You're a kid. And you running off to fight or whatever is no different than if I did that.
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[Luz paused, because she looked down and saw that Tempest had her head in her lap, staring up at her. The look she was giving Luz was one that Luz would have recognized in the recesses of her memory: it was the look Eda had given her the first night, when she promised not to go off and get herself killed.
And thinking of that, Luz looked up at Luca a moment, feeling that Bond of theirs surging through her. In that instant, she realized that Luca reminded her of someone she hadn't seen in a long time, someone who would have objected to what she was doing and would have been angry she was second guessing their abilities.
She couldn't help thinking of Gus.
Luz looked down at her hands a moment, quietly thinking about the things that Luca was telling her, thinking about what had happened to her. THEN she started thinking about what Ahiru had said, and how Luz had tried to play off what was happening as a mistake.
She closed her eyes, sighing, and when she opened them again, they were glittering with tears].
You guys are just...worried about me, aren't you? And instead of realizing that, I'm explaining away what happened and thinking I have to protect you.
[She'd have been properly freaking out if Luca had done this and would have been all mother mode if he came back.
Like she'd been to Varian].
Okay. I won't do this again. From now on, when danger comes and one of us wants to go and do something, we talk to everyone about it, we make it clear how we feel.
We shouldn't make everyone in the house scared that they might die. We're what we have.
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[Or killed. Sure, getting killed is more like a minor injury people easily recover from in this place, but it's still traumatic and there's still that ever present fear that this time they won't come back.]
I think that's a good idea. That way if we decide to do something, we can decide what to do together.
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[And Luz wanted to strengthen herself as well, physically and in her magic. She felt like she'd been feeling unfocused for far too long].
Exactly. I think it'll make Ahiru feel less frantic too.
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[Stay at the house and recover unless she wants to leave for non-stressful non-dangerous reasons.]
You're right. I think so, too.
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[She still had glyphs to mess with, after all].
Oh, there is ONE other thing I am doing. It's less dangerous and more, ah, competitive? Going to that karate tournament to rep Ozpin's dojo I'm in. If you wanted to come, that'd be cool?
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[He remembers hearing about that tournament. He remembers doing one of the training sessions with that, himself. He's not too worried about it. Sure, it had been scary and difficult, but there were adults watching over things and making sure nothing went too badly.]
Yeah! I'll come to cheer you on!
[After all, he's not trying to ground her with not wanting her to do dangerous things. He does want her to have fun. He just doesn't want her to die.]
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[Luz would do her best, but she HAD been recovering from death and she was competing with people who had trained for some time. It would be difficult no matter how much stronger Luz had become.
As for grounding? Luz was grounding herself in this instance. The last thing she wanted was to make her remaining family scared she'd needlessly put herself in danger].
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[And since it's just a fun thing, he'll support her no matter how she does. Well, he'd do that no matter what, but in this case he'll just be happy that she got to to something to keep her mind off of all this regardless.]
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[Oh, it will, but after this, there'll be something else to definitely someone else being a good distraction for her]!
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Hey, that reminds me. I have a place in mind I want to take you and Ahiru. Will you humor me and go, and then I'll treat you guys to ice cream and the arcade?
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[Two things he loves, how could he say no?]
And where is the place? Or is it a surprise?
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No, I'll tell you since Ahiru knows already. There's a new bookstore in Trench I want to take you both to! I met the girl in charge and she's super nice and wants nothing more than to get people all cozy in her store reading and recommending books!
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[Make that three things he loves.]
I'd love to go! I can't wait to see all the books she has! I wonder if she has any about space. Or science. Or strange new places and other worlds!
[As if showing up in the Trench shouldn't have been 'new world' enough for him, but that doesn't mean he can't always be fascinated by thoughts of other places.]
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[Luca has the Bond, so he'll sense that while Luz is certainly happy about doing that, there's also a warm, frantic excitement she's not talking about that seems to be making her heartbeat faster than normal].
When I go over to help, I'll try to put a few aside for you, ok?
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Great! I'd really like that! I could always use more books!
[As if though he didn't already have a mountain of books as well as spending a ton of time at the library.]
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Also, she really wanted her housemates to have access to something that would enrich them and calm them down when things got rough].
I thought you might! She's going to love you guys! We might need to help Ahiru look though. Apparently she's not a big reader.
[Specifically she barely read, which alarmed Luz a little because what if her life depended on it one day]?
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[He's, of course, thinking she's like Alberto. That she can read passably well, but that she just isn't able to handle something like a textbook. He also needs to determine if she wants to learn to read better, because if someone isn't interested in learning, they won't.
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[Luz felt the same here, actually. She might think it was helpful and necessary, but it had to be something she wanted to do, otherwise it was just going to be forced and unpleasant].
Think I should ask Zib if he wants to go too?
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[And Zib's the type to want to expand his knowledge.]
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[Also, it gave her something to do until she started leaving the house again]!
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[He's glad for anything that'll help a bookstore get off to a good start, after all.]
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Wrap?
You got it!