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deernet2022-05-19 06:51 am
imaglyphwitch) wrote in deernet2022-05-19 06:51 am
Video UN: glyphywitchy [Back dated to May 12]
[It's been a few days since dying, and Luz had unfortunately kept this to herself. If you haven't been able to tell, this girl has been having a pretty rough month, and it didn't seem to be getting better. She lurched her device to focus, and, though coughing, was looking directly into the camera].
So. Uh. Died. First time, ha ha, not a fun experience. Kinda looking for some company, here or just on this thing otherwise. I should probably be getting rest, yes, but staring up at the ceiling regretting stuff and hating yourself can only keep out the quiet for so long.
Also, been out of the loop a bit. Someone update me on things?
[Action]
Luz was pretty sure that she was going to get an earful from people in the house, but ESPECIALLY from Ahiru, who had very much not wanted her to go on the mission. Luz had thought she could handle it and had handled somewhat similar situations before. Now, though, since they'd talked about it before, Luz knew it looked even WORSE.
Add the whole mix of self-loathing for being too weak to avoid death and the ever-present gloom of missing Fern and Varian, and Luz was pretty much a powder keg of emotions and blah. She was in her room right now, dimly lit with her purple lights and surrounded by a fort of stuffed animals and, well, Luz was a sight to see.
So. Uh. Died. First time, ha ha, not a fun experience. Kinda looking for some company, here or just on this thing otherwise. I should probably be getting rest, yes, but staring up at the ceiling regretting stuff and hating yourself can only keep out the quiet for so long.
Also, been out of the loop a bit. Someone update me on things?
[Action]
Luz was pretty sure that she was going to get an earful from people in the house, but ESPECIALLY from Ahiru, who had very much not wanted her to go on the mission. Luz had thought she could handle it and had handled somewhat similar situations before. Now, though, since they'd talked about it before, Luz knew it looked even WORSE.
Add the whole mix of self-loathing for being too weak to avoid death and the ever-present gloom of missing Fern and Varian, and Luz was pretty much a powder keg of emotions and blah. She was in her room right now, dimly lit with her purple lights and surrounded by a fort of stuffed animals and, well, Luz was a sight to see.
Re: (CW: alcoholism, death)
[not dumb. definitely not dumb]
Yeah, I never really went along with the cool crowd, even though in the summer before Freshman year, I kinda wanted to. But I quickly realized that I can be the one of the guys friend or the silently appreciative friend, but not the cool friend.
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[Self-deprecating too, but that was a story for another time].
Cool is in the eye of the beholder. I would make the case that you are my unique, super smart friend, and as far as I'm concerned, that makes you pretty cool to me.
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[so was she, so they're doomed. or fated. could be either?]
Well...thank you. I think I'm going to remember that every time I have a horrible flashback from high school.
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[Besides, what did she care what people on Earth thought? She wasn't there, she was HERE, with someone who was way better than all of them.
Either or both]!
Just imagine me doing a funny chicken dance whenever you have those flashbacks. Maybe that will help.
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[if Luz meant that Lexi was better, she'd blush so hard, she might catch fire]
Well, I need to see the funny chicken dance first. [and she grins broadly]
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[She absolutely meant Lexi]!
All right, but I only because you specifically requested it!
[Luz, having shame at being a dorky cornball and doing an impromptu chicken dance? You clearly have her confused with someone else. She proceeds to do just that, and to be extra Luz? She finishes with a wink at the end].
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[blushblushblush]
Let's see it!
[and she happens to like dorky cornballs. and she blushes at the wink] Very nice! I've never seen a chicken dance in person before!
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[Unless they're nerding and have a difference of opinion where Luz will absolutely back her own claims!
Once she was done, she stuck out her tongue and gave a little pose].
Your wish is my command, m'lady!
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[she doesn't think it's terribly likely, at least not so far.
and Lexi claps enthusiastically]
Very good! Five stars and ten points out of ten!
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[Luz would certainly give her the benefit of the doubt. She trusted Lexi to speak with integrity].
Thank you, thank you! I've never been complimented much on my chicken dancing skills, but I'm glad it made you laugh!
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[even though back home ran on lies, lies of every kind and about every subject imaginable]
What, it's cute! And you're brave, to do something like that in front of a virtual stranger.
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[Luz was hoping they wouldn't have that problem. Fibs were one thing, lies were another].
What can I say, I'm impulsive! And hopefully we won't stay strangers, right?
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[she's not one for lies. not really. but she wants to be as honest as she can here]
We won't. I already know that.
hahaha "friends"
[There will be OTHER problems, sure, but at least this won't be one of them]?
Good! I can tell you and I are going to be great friends!
LOL, girlfriends~~
[other problems have their way of rearing their ugly heads]
So can I. I'm so glad I responded to this.
YUUUSSSS
[If it happened, at least she had someone she was sure she could count on']!
Me too. I can't believe I met someone so cool on a message where I was mostly feeling miserable. Now I feel anything but!
😁
I'll bet you can't, Luz.
Can't wait to see you in person!