( video | un: alucard )

[ananym]

[ he really hates doing this . . . but alucard knows he needs to commit to it. the feed turns on with him looking . . . not quite sheepish, but a tinge of irritation layered with contriteness. ]

Last month, I had the unfortunate issue of losing control of my vampiric nature and lashed out onto a number of people here. I hope you would be willing to accept my apology and if not, direct me in ways where I can make amends. I . . . do not usually need or require blood as sustenance so it took me by surprise.

My apologies. If it helps, it seems I've lost my sense of taste. Perhaps that is penance in a way.

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voice; un: yuuki

[siriusly]

Multiple people...?!

[ananym]

[ what is so surprising about that . . . ]

Yes, unfortunately.

[siriusly]

Jeez...

[well what if Manabu felt kind of hopeful that he'd ditched you and you...y'know...stopped.............]

What the heck was that all about anyway? Is that gonna happen again?

[ananym]

It . . . should not. As I said, it's not typical for my nature to act in such a way. That being said, I cannot speak for this place and how it affects me.

[siriusly]

Right...

[there's a beat, and then the channel fizzes, swapping over to private.]

So tell me what'll knock you out. For if there's a next time.

[ananym]

[ alucard narrows his eyes briefly. ]

I don't know. For vampires, it is usually kill or escape. We're not easy to incapacitate.

[siriusly]

Vampires can mean...a lot of things. I mean, growing up where I'm from, they're just cartoon villains who are scared of going outside in the day!

So I need a bit more to work with than not easy to incapacitate.

[ananym]

And I told you, I don't know.

I am not a vampire in the traditional sense. Yes, sunlight would hurt and kill vampires.

But I am half human as well.

[siriusly]

That-- [hh.] That just makes it more complicated! What does that mean? You never got your ass beat in your life or what?

[ananym]

[ alucard's expression slips minutely. ]

It has happened. I suppose your best method might be deceit and betrayal.

[siriusly]

[nuance?? woosh, bye.]

Ehhh? How's that supposed to work when you just jump me from outta nowhere?

[ananym]

It doesn't.

I suppose you can try silver, but again . . . it won't guarantee you a victory.

[siriusly]

Silver, huh... I guess that's better than nothing. [now musing aloud to himself:] But it'd be weird to ask to subject you to something that might hurt you after-the-fact...

[ananym]

It will heal. Slowly, but surely.

[siriusly]

A--okay. Silver. That's better than nothing.

[ananym]

It should suffice if it happens again, at least.

[siriusly]

Mn...

[a beat.]

Thanks. And...sorry. I know that's not a really...it's not something anyone wants to talk about. But it's not really so much for my sake as for...in case I need to separate you from someone, you know? I'd rather it never happen, but. Just in case.

[ananym]

I am not angry.

[ more like annoyed but it's all directed inwardly. ]

And I would not begrudge anyone their survival from . . . myself. As I said, it's not a normal occurrence. But I cannot predict what this place may do.

[siriusly]

No one really can. Only... [he breathes out a rueful kind of laugh.] only I don't think anyone needed any silver shots to take me down when stuff got bad in mycase.

But that's a good thing, considering.

[ananym]

Unfortunately, I cannot help what I am.

[ and this is the first real time he's felt distaste for it. alucard has never been ashamed of being a vampire. he's not sure he likes the taste of it now. ]

[siriusly]

N-no, and I don't blame you for it! If that's what it sounded like, auh...well. I can't say I usually get into conversations like this, so that's probably on me.

[ananym]

[ alucard seems bemused. ]

What sort of conversations are you typically involved with?

[siriusly]

[he makes a false-start sound, and if he could, he'd be making dial-up noises for a beat there.

as it stands, there's just the quiet. for a beat.]

Erh, just...not...ones talking about how to kill one another, you know...?

[ananym]

No? I never would have guessed.

[siriusly]

[oh no

oh no is this a sarcasm person

goddammit HE'S REALLY SHITTY AT DETECTING SARCASM PROPERLY, DILUC WHERE ARE YOU]

Y-yeah, well-! [COUGHAHEM.] That's how it is. And...I asked what I needed to ask. So. So I can leave it at that!