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[klawful]

THIS IS BIOLOGICAL FUCKING WARFARE.
THIS IS A COMPLETE DECONSTRUCTION OF BODILY AUTONOMY.
SOME MAY EVEN GO AS FAR AS TO SAY THIS IS AN ACTUAL HATE CRIME. FOR I, ABOVE ALL ELSE, FEEL ESPECIALLY HATED RIGHT NOW.
THIS IS A HEINOUS ACT OF THE HIGHEST CALIBER AND THERE WILL BE GREAT RETRIBUTION, MARK MY WORD.

DO NOT ASK ME WHAT THIS IS ABOUT AS IT IS NONE OF YOUR FUCKING BUSINESS. I JUST WANTED TO ANNOUNCE MY DISSATISFACTION WITH THE CURRENT SITUATION TO THE WORLD AND SOCIAL MEDIA IS A VALID FORM OF PUBLIC DESPAIR. IF YOU DISAGREE I HAVE AN INCREDIBLY SPECIFIC PLACE WHERE YOU CAN "SHOVE IT" AS THEY SAY. MY DESPAIR IS CERTIFIABLE AND THIS DEERNET PLACE IS NOW MY PARTY WHERE I CAN FUCKING CRY IF I WANT TO.

NOT THAT I AM CRYING. THAT WOULD BE FOR SOMEONE EMOTIONALLY WEAKER THAN I, WHICH I HAVE NEVER BEEN EMOTIONALLY WEAK AT A SINGLE MOMENT IN MY ENTIRE LIFESPAN.

IF YOU DISLIKE IT, THEN YOU CAN FUCKING BLOCK ME AND GET OVER YOURSELF IN YOUR OWN CORNER OF THE INTERNET. EAT MY ENTIRE FUCKING BULGE. EXCEPT DO NOT. TO BE CLEAR, THAT WAS NOT A COME-ON OF ANY KIND. I WILL BURY YOU IN THE MISERABLE SANDS FROM WHICH WE HAVE BEEN REINCARNATED AND YOU WILL NOT REAWAKEN. FOR I WILL BE STANDING THERE TO CUT YOU DOWN THE MOMENT YOU OPEN YOUR EYES. SO, LITERALLY, YOU WILL NOT SEE IT AGAIN. THEORETICALLY. I CANNOT ACTUALLY TRULY ANTICIPATE THE EXACT SECOND YOU OPEN YOUR EYES BUT I WILL BE PREPARED ALL THE SAME.

*I WILL NOT BE CENSORED.*

Comments

[bolstafir]

can't say i saw it coming, but i've also never had tentacles in my life before
kind of clashed with my brand, honestly

[He doubles as a creature of the AIR not the SEA ok!!]

so you did want people to ask, huh

[If Qrow was aware of the term "tsundere" he'd use it here tbh.]

anyway, that's because you haven't been through a deerington october
i might've thought 'maybe trench will be different' but all last month happened so i'm gonna expect the worst until proven otherwise

[Admittedly it was pretty tame for Deerington standards, but he really thought coming here meant he wouldn't randomly get spirited away into situations where he was forced to talk about his feelings with strangers, so.]

cw: tentadicks :\a

[klawful]

TENTACLES ARE ALL RIGHT. WHEN THEY ARE FOR REPRODUCTIVE PURPOSES, YOU REALLY JUST DON'T NOTICE THEM MOST OF THE TIME.

WHAT IS YOUR """BRAND"""?

(He can appreciate a creature of air. He's been appreciating a creature of air for the past several years of his measly life.)

YOU ALL SOUND LIKE PUSSIES ABOUT THIS DEERINGTON PLACE, NOT GONNA LIE. I AM NOT AN EASILY TRAUMATIZED BEING. POOR YOU. DO YOU NEED THERAPY?

[bolstafir]

[Well. Alright then. Just gonna file that one under "things he sure did learn today" and ask for further details never.]

birds
name's qrow
(and yeah, it is spelled that way on purpose)

[Everyone from Remnant desperately needs therapy but that is not the point here, okay.]

anyway look i'm just saying you're new
it's easy to think you've seen more shit than anything this place can throw at you when you're new
hell, i'd take deerington bullshit over the bullshit i left behind in my world
but it's not nothing
that place uses your own shit against you
worst fears, worst memories, the people you miss the most or who've hurt you the worst
changing your blood is the tip of the iceberg in terms of what these places can do to you

[klawful]

THAT'S AN UNFORTUNATE NAME THAT I BET PEOPLE FUCK UP ON A REGULAR BASIS.
SO WHEN YOU WERE BIRTHED IN WHATEVER STYLE YOUR KIND IS BIRTHED IN, DO THEY KNOW YOU ARE GOING TO BE PREDESTINED THEMED FOR BIRD SHIT OR WAS THAT JUST A HAPPY COINCIDENCE?


IT ISN'T ABOUT WHAT SHIT I HAVE OR HAVE NOT SEEN. IT IS ABOUT ME BEING A LITERAL ALIEN WHO COMPREHENDS VIOLENT AND UPSETTING EXPERIENCES COMPLETELY DIFFERENT ON AN ACTUAL MENTAL LEVEL. WOW, THIS JUST SOUNDS LIKE MY REGULAR TRAIN OF THOUGHT ON AN AVERAGE DAY. MY WORST FEARS? WORST MEMORIES? FUCKING SNOOZEVILLE. I REMIND MYSELF OF THAT ALL THE TIME IT HELPS TO PASS THE TIME. I AM THE ONLY PERSON WHO HAS HURT ME THE WORST. AND I RETELL THAT SHIT IN EXPLICIT DETAIL ON MEMOS ALL THE TIME. WHO CARES.

THE BLOOD IS PROBABLY THE ONLY THING I CARE ABOUT THOUGH. IRONICALLY.

SO WHAT. WE'RE IN A FUCKING NEXUS WITH ALL POWERFUL GODS OOOOH SO UNIQUE. I DON'T GIVE A SHIT. I JUST WANT TO TALK TO THE MANAGER.

[bolstafir]

i was named after the bird, yeah

[More specifically, a certain superstition associated with crows. But that's too sensitive a topic to get into with a stranger.]

the spelling didn't become relevant until much later
i chose it cause it looked cool

[And also...to disassociate it a little with its origins. It wasn't until Ozpin made him feel like he might be worth a damn that he started leaning into the aesthetic, after all.

Qrow rolls his eyes at the next part.]

that's all on your own terms, though
you deciding what you want to talk about or relive with who
you didn't get that choice with deerington
none of your shit is just yours there
any time it can get displayed to any random person the place wants or it'll trap you with someone and force you to explain things from the ground up

but hey
maybe you'll prove me wrong and be fine with everything else
what's better than winning an argument with a stranger on the internet, right?

[klawful]

THAT IS WHAT I AM SAYING, DOG. I LITERALLY PUBLICIZE MY FEELINGS ALL OF THE TIME TO RANDOM PEOPLE ON THE INTERNET BY THE DROVES. THAT IS THE ENTIRE POINT OF THIS POST. I AM EMOTIONALLY EXPOSING MYSELF 24.7. AND I EXPLAIN THINGS FROM THE GROUND UP EVEN WITHOUT SOME GREATER FORCE MAKING ME IT IS KIND OF MY PERSONALITY FLAW. THIS REALLY IS NOT UNSETTLING ME AT ALL.

ALSO, MY OLD GROUP OF FRIENDS WAS FILLED WITH TOTAL SOCIOPATHS SO BEING TRICKED OR FORCED INTO HUMILIATION AND EMOTIONALLY VULNERABLE THINGS ISN'T REALLY NEW EITHER. LIKE I SAID. SNOOZEVILLE.

I DO NOT THINK YOU UNDERSTAND HOW OVERBEARING I ACTUALLY AM, DUDE.

LITERALLY NOTHING.

[bolstafir]

[Being that open with feelings is quite honestly, for lack of a better term, entirely alien to Qrow, who rarely even manages to open up to his nearest and dearest. That said...ah. It's that part about Karkat's group of friends that gives him pause.]

genuine question
why keep talking to people who humiliate you regularly?

[There's one possible explanation in his mind from his own formerly very glass house, but it's the one that he's just self-aware enough to understand really might be projecting. Still, he can't help the note of concern that creeps into his tone there.]

[klawful]

HUMILIATION BREEDS STRENGTH. IF YOU HAVE NEVER BEEN MOCKED PUBLICLY HOW CAN YOU EXPECT TO GROW A STRONG EMOTIONAL SKIN? A GOOD FRIEND SHOULD MAKE YOU A BETTER VERSION OF YOURSELF.

IT IS A CULTURAL THING. I DO THE SAME TO THEM.

BUT IF THE END GOAL IS TO NOT BETTER YOUR FRIEND THROUGH MOCKERY THEN YES, IT IS CRUEL, AND YOU SHOULD EJECT THE INDIVIDUAL COMPLETELY FROM YOUR LIFE.