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[necroprince]

[She’s been here for over a week now. Time to get the lay of the land. The video opens up to a particularly tall blonde woman with a golden skeletal arm and a smirk. She's here to cause problems on purpose.]

Greetings, hello, salutations. My name is Ianthe Naberius. I’m new in town, twenty two, a princess of Ida, unfortunately single and dreadfully bored!

Now, I come to you today, not only to introduce myself, but to ask something of all of you.

Who do you hate most in Trench and why? I’m trying to meet people, network, but it’s so hard and overwhelmingly positive! So consider this an open invitation. Warn me about that dangerous scoundrel who kicked your puppy, seethe about how much you despise me for whatever reason, tell me about your parasocial hateful fixation on one of the local divinity. It can be a minor slight you want to complain about, a friend of yours who owes you two perfectly intact human skulls, or it can be an actual danger to this lovely little community of ours.

Now, before you try to say “this is childish and stupid!” You’re absolutely right, but it is a necessary part of self care to allow oneself to be an absolute cunt once in a while. [Or all the time, if your name is Ianthe.] So let’s not make any grand claims to being above something like this, mm?

Feel free to use the anonymity feature. Or the privacy feature, I guess, if you’re shy or worried about being fileted like a fish.

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[survivalthroughhate]

From where I'm sitting there's only one idiot here and it's the one I'm talking to.

[These two are a pair of very mature adults, aren't they?]

Have you ever considered that what I want ARE those people I care about so much? The two desires don't conflict anymore. I stopped what I was doing because I didn't want to lose them, because I cared more about their needs and the pain I was causing them than my desire to always burn down everything around me.

I'm a Sith. Pain and fear give me strength and power. It's better than being some toothless wretch like you. "Oh look, poor me, I just sit here helpless to act while the big bad Sith Lord hurts my family. Guess I'll just wring my hands more instead of taking action." That is what is truly pathetic.

cw: flippant talk of addiction (from a former addict :B)

[bolstafir]

and yet, you're still doing things like this
again, just look at your best friend up there
that facepalm says a thousand words, buddy

just so we're clear, by the way, if it would've stuck? i would've killed you back in deerington the first time you made trouble for us and been done with it
hell, if you were the kind of person who'd have considered it even if i hurt you or one of yours in exchange, i'd have done it

but you're the kind of nutjob that never considers the scales even
enough that you can't let one insult slide after throwing down a torrent of them yourself

you're stupid enough to think pain and fear will keep you safe, but you're still fucking miserable, aren't you? or you wouldn't feel the need to go on these rants again and again
it's kind of like being a drunk, really
except instead of booze it's rage
you get a fix of it every couple months, then get restless and itchy as time passes and realize nobody really gives a shit about you anymore, so you dig up some old wounds to feed your persecution complex
because otherwise you'd actually have to confront the idea of starting fresh
it scares the shit out of you because you don't know if you really can, so you might as well lay a foundation to make it out like you never had a fair shot in the first place

[survivalthroughhate]

Usagi knows me. And knows well enough that this, right here? This is me doing much better than she's ever seen me do before. I exasperate her but I also stopped hurting her and myself to the point of making her cry. I never want to see her like that again and so far I've stuck to that.

[It's too difficult for Maul to really put into words but the sight of seeing her weeping, begging him to stop what he was doing, to stop hurting himself and everyone around him, it had stirred something very deep inside Maul. Seeing her like that didn't make him want to think of just himself anymore. He wanted to make her smile again and never be the cause of her tears ever again.

Surprisingly, he starts to slightly understand what Qrow is getting at despite the rage coursing through that still makes him want to hunt down whoever is on the other end of the line and lop off both their hands with a lightsaber.]

That's the path of the Sith. Anger and hate are part of our core tenants as we use the Dark Side. Which is anathema to how everyone on the side of light operates but sometimes being selfless and compassionate and kind doesn't allow you to survive. And that's what I've done all this time. I survive. No matter what happens to me, I keep on going.

It's interesting you talk about a fair shot. Because I doubt, no matter what I do or how I change, that you're one of those people who would give me one. Like recognizes like and I see someone who's teetered on the edge of darkness themself.

[bolstafir]

sure
but even you have to recognize that the exasperation means you're doing something wrong, in her eyes
she knows doing better doesn't mean you're done, or that you can demand everyone pat you on the butt for being less awful than you could've been
go on, ask her if she disagrees, i dare you

you've got no idea what i'd do, actually
maybe stop scratching at people's scars and see what happens?
food for thought

oh, i've gone way past the edge, buddy
i killed more people than i can count, growing up, because it's the only way i knew how to survive
and that's how i also know surviving isn't the same thing as living
it's not even what matters the most in life
at some point you have to be able to let that way of thinking go, or you'll just spend the rest of your life afraid, which is no life at all

the first time i ever remember being happy was when i found people i'd willingly die for, after all those years i spent surviving

[It's not corny to love people, Emerald, he'd said once. What else is all that surviving even for?]

[survivalthroughhate]

Ask her yourself, you miserable wretch. I'm not going to sit here and discuss hypotheticals about what I shall or shall not do with someone I'm close to here.

Is that supposed to be a threat? Because I'm tired of all this talk from people. "I'm warning you." "You have no idea what I'm capable of." "Keep talking and see where that leads you." Clearly most are full of hot air judging by how many have actually come after me.

[Then there was a long, long, long pause before Maul responded to that next part. So long Qrow might have well set down the Omni dealing with all this drama.]

I'm not there yet. I don't know if I'll ever be. This isn't a place for peaceful actions and calm thoughts, the kind that lead to turning over a new leaf in such a manner that it leads one back to the light. Staying the way I have has allowed me to survive and protect those I care about. That's what it is important to be first and foremost. Everything else comes second.

[bolstafir]

wow
did you hurt yourself with that reach
incredible

i don't know what to tell you, man
if this isn't the place then where the hell is?
death doesn't even stick

dropping the survival goggles helps you take care of your people better, too
believe me or don't, but it's true
maybe you'll be strong enough to find out someday

[survivalthroughhate]

The problem with acting like death doesn't mean anything is the moment you take that for granted, someone does die and won't revive. Coming back from the dead is not a guarantee.

That day is not going to be today and you're not the one to convince me. I'm not about to come to a sudden revelation from someone who is content to insult me and pass judgment. You're the LAST person I would listen to when it comes to anything about changing my ways.

[bolstafir]

says the guy content to insult and pass judgment on a post about insulting and passing judgment

you're free to stop talking to me literally any time buddy
how much is the last word worth to you