Text UN: 1stStrike CW: Comp Het/Internalized homophobia?

[strikefirster]

[Johnny Lawrence stares at his Omni briefly. Ever since the whole speed dating fiascothe month before there has been something nagging at him. Something that didn't quite feel right to him.

Which is what brings him to his Omni today. And after two or three times where he is accidentally posted on the network one would think he'd learn his lesson, right?]

How not to be gay.

Is doing karate with dudes gay now?

[Wrong.

The network is not google, Johnny.]

Comments

[strikefirster]

Pretty sure he was trying to get me out of his life.
But you never fucking know.

[lipochrome]

sometimes people dont know what they want
or theyre bad at saying it

i tried to kick you out of my life and look how well that turned out
i sucked at it

[strikefirster]

Look-
You know what? Maybe I'll save time and tell you to shut up now.

But only about that first part.
I know a thing or two about pushing people away when things are rough.
It never goes as well as you think it would.

>private;

[lipochrome]

a whole planet and also death tried to shut me up and both failed
so i think you have your work cut out for you

yeah
i guess i thought it would be easier if we just hated each other
maybe it still would because this sucks to talk about actually

[strikefirster]

Don't count me out of the running yet.
A planet doesn't have shit on me.

I've been down that road myself, kiddo.
And yeah... It sucks shit, and it hurts.
But it says a lot about you that you were able to man up and do it.
I fuckin' knew you would.

[lipochrome]

you know im not a kid or a man right

[ but that's not the point, and gideon knows it. ]

did you really know that i would
come back i guess
im still not the same as i was before

[strikefirster]

Since fucking when?

[Did Johnny just get a joke?]

Hey.
If I could pull it off there was no doubt in my mind that you could too.

I'm not either. But I like to think that I'm better than before.
It might be a bit before you feel the same way.
But I'm sure you are too.

[lipochrome]

[ huge if true!! gideon laughs a little, despite herself. ]

i think im just worse at pretending now
i used to make all these dumb jokes all the time and now they dont feel as funny
maybe its because im getting old or whatever

but i cant believe you were ever that bad
i mean youre like a sensei and shit
thats not something bad people do

[strongroots]

[ because of this private convo-- ]

you should keep kicking him out of ur life
or kick his ass
i insist

[lipochrome]

[ that conversation would have made gideon feel emotions only shrimp can perceive. good thing she doesn't know about it! ]

well kicking his ass isnt that hard hes like a hundred years old
or at least had the hots for some super old weirdos which is definitely worse

> private
idk though
kicking him out felt worse for some reason
i guess thats easy for me to say though since hes not my actual dad

[strongroots]

whats worse is him describing the noises she made
but also they were both messing with your head
be creative if you feel that sorry for his ageing bones

[ but, if we're going private: ]

liked him that much?

private;

[lipochrome]

wait he told you about that shit
fuck
gross
come on

i mean
he was around when my dad was off moping about his creepy frozen girlfriend
but i know it was the reverse for you
so if you want me to shut the fuck up about him i can

[strongroots]

doesnt bother me
the him being around thing for you
my dads mouth? bugs me all the time

he did say your dad pulled some shit and dragged a bunch of you into it
and i know pauls big into sticking by him

[lipochrome]

yeah my dad was the one who put me in the zombie body
dont ask me if im mad about that i still dont know

my dad liked paul better than me
theyre both giant nerds so it makes sense
i dont know if pauls super into him now though we kind of dont talk about it

but i dont wanna be the kid your dad likes better than you

[ that's the problem with kiriona. she's always been a little more blunt, and even now, can't shake the habit. ]

[strongroots]

[ It's only as he's thinking about his response (he has a few) that it finally--probably finally--clicks to Robby what Kiriona means. The kid your dad likes better than you.

He was thinking they were just close. Was this a different type of close than Paul? Or--

you know what? He's ignoring it. Just like he likes to when it comes to Paul. Tuck that fucker away, now. ]

thats up to my dad who he likes better
he always has an easier time with other kids
not the first time

not because ur the better choice either
you seen his tastes? trash

[ let's not get a big head, now. but, there's a pause before his next few texts. ]

you can talk about him if u want
just dont expect me to know much about him before here
but were trying to do better about being family
so
who knows what will happen there

[ With him being favoured.

Not going to think about that, either. He's not immune to pettiness and jealousy. ]